i feel super guilty... very very guilty...

woke up sobbing...

i was supposed to accompany mum to hospital.. but.. becoz i slept late last nite..

overslept this morning..and found a note next to me..

she left without me... *sigh*

worried............... left her a sms..and she called back..

and even asked wad i wanted for breakfast...

regardless of the pain she is bearing now.. she still spares a thought for us...

tat's my MUMMY..she's the best and the greatest!! no matter how hard life has been for her all these years..suffering pains and aches... she still manages everything well and make the best out of everything for her beloved children [ me and sisters... ]

well.. was passing by people's blog..okie i noe i am a kpoh..sorry la..haha... juz wanted to noe how u guys were doing..

came upon several stufff.... struck me hard...

grandpa tonglong's stories also struck me hard and thought bout many many stuff...

am i really up to it ?

praying for greater strength.........


falling for u was the greatest mistake....


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well oh well..

the concert is finally over...

a big THANK YOU to the alumni members who have helped in moving the instrus..planning.. and of coz guiding us, the juniors, thru all these practices...

thanks to the main band too.. for effort and time.. the year is ending... do take care and catch up with some work yeah... all the best for next yr..

certainly do hope tat there would be another of such combine concert with alumnis.. really glad to have known most of the people..esp from my section.. thanks so much for the gifts....

all the best for 2006....


well.. i've heard some stuff along the way back..and it has struck me hard... became quiet and thought..... really meant alot...



tonglong, adlina, simin, xiaoling, lishi, wenchao, samuel, hwaee, michelle, alan :
THANK YOU guys sooo much for helping us out to settle stuff... take care and all the best fo the new year... [ duno if u'll see this though.. lolz ] thanks so much for the gifts too...

grace, xinni, yogendran, vanessa, azfar : thank u all for the cooperation and help u've given during the past few practs... take care and all the best for the new year.. [ duno if u'll see this too.. ]

jocelyn : take care kies... rest well.. hugs...

grace gal : stay strong.. no matter wad.. i will always be here de...

mag : i miss u lehz!! come back..quick....

daph : u MIA to where sia...lolz.. hugs..

boonhwee : thanks for helping us out... =)

menghiang : gal... if u have made up ur decision..den i will support u..sorry i've been busy so ignored quite a few sms-es from u...

jun : study hard... kies?? all the best for the new year...

dearest lilo : the new year is coming.. fast hor?? sorry this yr spent little little time with u....
u take care kies.. when u bored... i am only 8 numbers away...hugs..love ya...miss ya...

kenny : i noe u wont read.. type for fun de.. u take care.. v fast come back from aust le.. quick quick kies... miss ya

that special you.. i duno wda to tell u.. but take care... =)

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losing faith and trust in that special someone...

memories of the past will always remain on my mind...

if it doesnt for u.... nvm..

becoz it seems... ur world belongs to elsewhere.......

forgive me for my harshness...

but...

u made me...

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had a super hard time this afternoon at band..

trying to get my playing rite...and trying to overcome the pain i had on my spine...

sorry grace if i looked pissed.. coz i really cant stand the pain.. yups..sorry...

well.. thanks to my darling grace.. she bought dinner for me.. thanks gal...

den received phone call tat gates are locked.. so i hurried to check it out..

and den the counsellors told us that the IN gate was actually OPEN!!

tiring tiring... nvm.. problem number one..


den i received sms from SOMEONE... another problem rose... like wad the la... nvm..

continue smiling...

den more problems start coming up... really couldnt take it..

thanks grace dear for being there.... hugs..

problematic day... i should have juz stayed home and take my painkillers and rest...

haiz.. wadeva la... THIS IS NOT THE FIRST TIME ANIWAE...

get used to it.....

tml will be the concert day.. jiayou pple... agree with wad justine said... fight till the very end...!!

yups.. next yr will be a busy yr too.. so jiayou..really..!!

hmmz... gotta wake up super early tml to accompany mummy to hospital...

praying hard for the test results.... lord pls....

for me.. i havent receive my results yet... yups....

wad a christmas... wad a new year... i wonder wad it will be like when i turn 18 in few days time... SUCKY OF COZ!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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ARGH !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! the pain is killing me...


the left side of my body hurts like mad... esp near the spine area... gosh...

pray hard that it is not my old injury... yeeks... NO theraphy pls...no no..

i will be cabbing to band later... coz it hurts so badly...

gonna take medication now.....................

PAINKILLERS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

~ tata everyone... the new year is coming ~ put the past behind and move forward.... ~



resolutions for the year...

1) study real hard for A-lvls...

2) get myself a new wallet

3) stop munching like it is the end of the world..
( haha it is a yearly resolution.. nv accomplished in past years..so it is up again for 2006)

4) haven tot of anymore... juz wanna stay happy and healthy...

same goes for everyone out there.. esp my loved ones...



~ esp mummy.... ~

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boo boo.. stayed home the whole day..

supposed to meet lilo in town.. but we both got lazy..lolz...

so.. there was a change of plans.. we stayed home...

i dozed after a few sms-es..lolz...

oh well... tired and sianz.. school is gonna start soon.. a new year... new resolutions... sigh..


YESTERDAY, 25 Dec '05

M E R R Y C H R I S T M A S T O A L L ! ! !

oh well.. went to church in the morning with sis dad and mum.. was packed with worshippers..

after tat we went to parkway to have a family lunch at parkway's jack's place with my aunts and uncles...and also my cousins... haha... sis bought a pants and overall.. mum bought a top.. me.. juz stared with envy..

dad wont buy me one!! argh...!! how mean!!

sigh...lolz.. wadeva.. at least he offered to give me cash and i can decide how i wan spend it..

lalala...

after lunch.. it was bout 3plus.. jiefu sent me sis and mum home... all of them came over to greet grandma coz she din join us at lunch.....

oh well... stayed home and slacked again..

caught a few movies on SCV... love actually and garfield...lol..

erjie will be away at KL with dajie and jiefu... how sad..leaving me here...all alone...=(

hahaha.... nvm..hope they get me something nice..

oh and this Xmas... they shared a gift for me... I LOVE IT!!!!!!!!!!!!

nearly teared when i opened my gift... ADIDAS BAG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! lolz... hugs...love them...



SAT, 24 Dec '05

it's Xmas eve...lolz..woke up in the morning grinning all the way...lolz... erjie and i did our nails at home...

planned to meet lilo in town.. but it RAINED...argh!! boo hoo hoo... we cant seem to meet...argh..

so i juz slacked at home..and then... about 5plus.. dad gave me a task and he would pay me $15 to accomplish it..

money-minded me... of coz i agreed...lolz... so i went to parkway to collect our Xmas family package from prima deli....

OH MY GOODNESS!! they have such poor service there!! i nearly died talking to them...

apparently there was some missing orders... and we had to make them deliver to our house with that missing order...

as for me...?? i have to carry 1 box of black pepper chicken... 1 box of ham... 1 box of log cake... a salad... and a chef supreme pie...

and u noe wad... the salesperson actually wanted to pack one box in one carrier... which means.. i would be carry 4 plastic bags... IS SHE MAD???!!

so i had to pack for her.... and in the end.. i packed everything into 2 plastic bags...

efficient aye?? they shud hire me instead... argh..so pissed with their service..

nvm.. so i went home.. and got ready for dinner at aunt's place... heehee...


tat's all folks...

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FRI, 23 Dec 2005...

well well.. had breakfast with jocelyn farhan mag and grace.. of coz not forgetting our bdae gal.. MRS NEO...lolz.. we met at parkway's delifrance and had a delicious meal... we even had a cake..wee...so fun... glad tat mrs neo enjoyed herself...

after tat it was bout 11plus.. we did some last min shopping and bout chocos for the band as well as dr lee... heehee... had a little confusion with the salesperson...so weird...lolz...

after tat grace mag and i took 12 to sch... tired and bored... sigh.....

in sch.. we settled the X'mas gifts for teachers... thanks xinni for helping out with the writing...lolz...

den it was band pract... we were quite exhausted by the time it came near 6.... and we din have lunch..and supposedly no dinner... so hungry all the way till bout 9 when we had a break... thanks hwaee for the macs... grace and i shared the food...and gobbled it down... poor grace darling.. hope she is alrite... gobbled too fast... sigh...

i was feeling unwell too.. but..nahz.. can tahan...lolz..

oh yes.. i had a fun time hunting high and low for my beloved pencil.. thanks to alan who borrowed it and misplaced it..argh...lol... thank goodness he found it again... =)

so went home with mag...shared cab...lolz..gonna miss her till 3rd Jan... have fun in korea gal... hugs...

bh : thanks for the gift
mag : thanks for the gift too..take care wen u're away...
grace : u take care kies.. dun stress..
joce : enjoy ur party..!!

chowie : hey gal.. thanks forthe card.. quite surprised!! haha..
shannie : merry xmas gal... have fun
chingie : wah..MIA the whole hols sia.. have fun..merry xmas...
lynnie : dun worry.. u can do the job even when mag is away... i am here... merry xmas.. =)

lilo : merry xmas gal... love ya...
kenny : too bad u are not here.. if not we sure party de... haha..take care..merry xmas..

menghiang : take care yeah.. lac too.. love ya
jun : merry xmas..all the best for studies...

sam hwaee michelle eugene yeekiat alan : a pity all of u cant join us for the upcoming concert... and the 3 guys will be off the army..well.. TAKE CARE..and.. MERRY XMAS!!!!

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tired and sick..

argh..better get well by Xmas...


best wishes to everyone..may u spend Xmas with ur loved ones.. =)


a very happy new year too... =)

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as each day passes by,

my fears build up.

i can run

but i can never hide

from the truth

that lies right in front...

waking up in the middle of the night

finding myself wrapped under my blanket

sobbing...

praying that all these will end

when i get a "OK" from those reports...

will my prayers be answered...

lord i know u are here

by my side

every night u give me warmth

by holding me in ur arms...

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been home the whole of my friday...


actually planned to go CCHY.. but den.. i am down with flu..so yups.. plans were cancelled...


boo hoo hoo...


oh well... mum went to hospital today for check up... rather bad news from doctor....


lord...i pray tat all will be fine... =(


... so many stuff happened ard me.....

my health report.... den here comes mummy's....... who's next??


lord.. pls protect my loved ones from any harms.... i pray that they are safe and sound as each day passes by.....



i am very tired.. really tired... i juz wan end everything...

i am very drained... very very.................................................






lord... hold me in ur arms.... and lift me up.... and bring me into ur kingdom........

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stuck at home....


sick....


sniff...


cough...

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well.. JC band fest is finally over... gonna have a break all the way till 21st.. so guys.. catch up on sch work and some rest ya... dun fall ill...like me.. *sniff* *cough*

hmm... well.. gonna miss sparke band.. gotta noe some really nice pple like amanda foo...hahhaa..sweet gal.. well.. next concert will be the tpjc alumni band concert on 29th dec...

pple.. sell tickets ya!! quick quick sell..!! hmmm...

coughing and sniffing... losing my voice.... so sad.. sigh...

haven started on any sch work..going to be so dead for faculty tests..... can i cope in J2?? sigh.. i wish i can......


everyone out there...all the best ya...


jellyfish....

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well.. tml will be the concert for JC BAND FEST 05...

cant wait...

but there is also a part of me wishing tat it will nv come... coz i dun wan it to end...

LOL LOL LOL... those whu understand... good..the rest...too bad...lalalala...


well.. been home the whole day.. din feel like going anywhere... told dearie mh tat i will visit.. but i din..so sorry.... i will visit u soon.. i promise my dearest...


and i'm feeling kind of down.. so many troubles and worries keep bombarding my mind...


i wish someone can juz take me away from this irritating world...!!



thanks to those whu have been there.... time is ticking...


tick...tock...tick...tock....

byeeee...


jellyfish ar jellyfish....................................................... so dead......

angels : i miss u 3 alot alot...!!

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JELLY FISH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


JELLY FISH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


OH NO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


SAVE ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


LOL......


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JC BAND FEST 2005 !!!!!!


weee... hahaa.. the 3 days practice at NIE is over..... now we await for the performance at Esplanade... weee... well.. met some new pple...haha..they are all very friendly... heehee... also learnt quite a bit from the way they play... and also wanna thank chaperones for helping out and guiding us... thanks to dr lee and mr oura for conducting us... heehee..take care everyone...


well.. i am quite moody and upset... but ya.. nvm.. thanks mag daph grace joce for being there... =)


well well... i am tired... dun feel lik blogging much... juz wanna say....


a change of heart... i wan let go everything...


treasuring every moment while i can... before... i... say.... good.......byeee.eee.eeeee....


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well...

juz returned from band chalet... haha had quite a fun time on the first nite... with bbq and most seniors coming back... weee... thanks so much for coming... hope u guys enjoyed urself...

in the nite... played with them a game called "pig"... it really requires one's FULL concentration...

if not... hahaa... OH NO... lol


oh well... next few days there is BAND FEST... so tired... hahahaa.... see u guys....



ilu : wee... when we going out??

mag : tired heh? hahaa.... thanks for being there for me though u had ur class thingie.... =) [ hubby 1 2 3 4??? ]

daph : hahaa.. thanks for making me feel welcome with ur class pple... nice bunch of pals... =) love ya

grace: u take care kies?? dun stress...lol.. god bless...


lilo : weee... hahaa.. finally saw u tat day.. X'mas coming.. heh heh... *ahem ahem* hinting...

kenny : u extending ur stay... so sad.... sigh.. take care yeah???

menghiang : i will visit whenever i can my dear.. stay strong.. love ya.. loads...

jun : study hard ya?? jiayou in sch... heehee.. take care tooz...

reagan : YOU!! haha finally back here for hols...hahaa.. take care...

sam hwaee michelle yeekiat eugene and alan : din see all of u at the chalet except or michelle and alan.. take care kies?? god bless...

THANKS TO ALL WHU HAVE ATTENDED THE CHALET!! AND ALSO HELPED OUT!!! THANKS SO MUCH.........!!!!!!!!!!

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