i wished u fucking read this now. i wished u knew how to get here.

here goes! i'm tired of this shit u give!
i dun want to face this EVERY FUCKING SEMESTER!

money?! that's the MAIN problem to all ur PMS around here isnt it?!

if it fucking hell bothers u soooo fucking much that ur money is flowing out rapidly....

DEN

WAD THE FUCK ARE U STILL DOING HERE?!

it's high time u get ur ass out there isnt it?

to think u boast about "oh my determination and drive is so strong. i make sure i do wad i say"

YA RITE! BULLSHIT!

u fucking said u wanna get a job blah blah blah... 3years ago ass!

and now??? u still go on complaining and boasting.

arent u the least bit ashamed?!

oh u noe wad, i guess u think u are toooo fucking great for a low paid job.

WAKE UP LOSER! U ARE OUT! FUCKING OPEN UR EYES AND EARS!

i'm fucking pissed now. i dun even wanna think about anything.

i so wanna run away.

and the worst bit. i saw smth i really din wanna see.
like fuck. the worst bit has come.

-happy moment-

guess u are happy now.


foolishme. i am such an idiot. thinking all will be good. u noe wad?!
i feel like a dumbass. why din i wake up?! slap myself.

fuck. guess i got his genes. fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck.

i wanna scream to the world.

FUCK OFF!

i hate the new year. i hate my coming birthday. i hate to go back to school. i hate everything.

fuck. maybe it is just me. sorry guys. i really dun see the happy thing ard here anymore.

fuck la

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out with my babes today again. ching and shan. haha.

supposed to head to funan to check out prices of the ds. but i got lazy. oops.
shopped at marina. den we got tired. haha.

we really snacked alot! haha. lunch at like 1plus. den ice-cream at 4. den dinner at 630.

piang. fatso. me.

HAHA! ANNNNNND!!

i havent been swimming for like the longest time!! 2 weeks!! omg.

gonna see the doc tml and get my darn cough away. lol.

i miss the pool. i miss those hot sutff there. KIDDIN!! haha.

love my darlings. angels.


i'mmissingYOU

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spent a day out in town with my 2 lovely sisters.
was at wisma. den taka for food. all the way back to fareast for more shopping.

sort of decided wad i might get for new year. heehee.
hope it's still there by den. lovely lovely.

den headed to vivo city for more shopping and dinner. sushi tei. yummms.

well. havent had such a day out with them ever since i duno when. kinda miss the feeling of us 3 fooling around under the same roof. sighh.

oh fark. get out of that emo-shit. lol.

tml shall be fun! gonna hang out with the 2 ladies. ching and shan! yipppee. miss them loads.
hope we can decide on where to ger our nintendo. wooohoooo.

big thanks to aunt who's sponsoring. lalaaa. lovess.

take care everyone.shall update again. =))

istillmissYOU.

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alrite this is a belated post! haha. well here goes.

M E R R Y C H R I S T M A S !!!!!

haha. i believe everyone celebrated their xmas with fun. joy. love. happiness.

the year is ending. and a new year is coming. time really flies isnt it.

let's see wad i've done this yr.

beginning of the year was definitely working as temp staff. OCBC. Great Eastern.
den it was back to school at SIM.
spent the mid-yr struggling with projects.exams. stressed out. and now before i know it, the new sem is here on 7th Jan 2008. WOW.

this yr's christmas is definitely less fun. guess as time passes, we tend to spend christmas with just our family or even alone. guess we neglect others. or are simply tooo busy with our own schedules. or worse, the shittiest stuff has the pop out and screw up alll plans.

dread. haha.

well. i'm glad this yr has been fruitful.

lucas has brought much joy and headache to us all. but slowly, he's growing. and we love him.
meeting new friends and overcoming difficulties and stress has been part of my growing up in 2007. i'm glad HE watched over me. =)

ending off. i wanna thank all those who entered my life and made an impact. u guys have been the loveliest bunch of peeps i've met.

especially. the following people...

chingie. shannie. lynnie.

and of course not forgetting...

xiufeng. kenny. keng. janet.

and also...

mag. e.T.

plusss...

menghiang. zijun.

not foretting...

GROUP M!!
drew. jade. germaine. steff.

u all have been the pillar this yr.. =) and definitely many more years. i love u all.

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updates!! haha.

went out in the afternoon today with 2nd sis.
headed to raffles city first. den orchard. ordered cake.
den went wheelock place for her eyebrow threading session.

guess i will have mine done soon. prolly next week. heh.

den went back to fareast to meet her colleague, jamie. =)
had ya kun toast. yumms.

did more shopping at fareast. nth caught my eye though.
jamie bought a bag and 3 cardigans.
jie bought 2 clutch bags and 2 cardigans.

=)

den it was bidding jamie goodbye.
sis and i went wisma to look at clothes.

seriously. nth i fancied.

headed to heeren for more shopping. hahaaa.
den jie got hunger pangs. so we settled for some old chang kee.

den sis's friend, vera came to meet us and send sis home.
me? went to bugis to meet mum for dinner.

=)

home sweet home.

tml's outing with S21.heh heh.

i miss u.

well, caught SPOP on Channel U the other day. and i kinda liked the 2nd song.

titled: Love is Forever. u guys can vote for this song at the official Spop webby.
hahaa. nice. =)

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well well well. finally back to blogging.

last week was just filled with BAND! haha.
head chaperone for HOLST BAND.

had great help from my fellow chaperones and logistics.
[isabel.melissa.lisa.jean.keroy.luqman]

thank u guys sooo much. =)

well i kinda miss them now.
esp the J1s who really made me laughed and gossiped with them.

yes yes. the JJC pple. haha.

well. sadly. i fell sick. damn.

i lost my voice the next morning.
so, the date with shan and ching was pused the tuesday.

LOL!

we caught "Alvin and The Chipmunks" at cineleisure.
den took a walk down orchard road.
den we settled for dinner at TCC.

gave shannie dearest her belated present.

SHE LOVED IT! lol.

duh.

den it was walking back to somerset. and home.

i miss them all.

oh. S21 outing this saturday. time to meet all of them!

see ya all.


missing u.still

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alrite.

BAND FEST! BAND FEST! BAND FEST! haha. this will be wad i'm busy with the next 5 days.

so i'll update sooon if i have the energy when i return home.

so U GUYS ARE MISSED! take care and love ya all...


especially you

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happy birthday to the two dears in my life..

HAPPY 19th BIRTHDAY SHANNIE!!

HAPPY 22th BIRTHDAY KENG!!

haha. so sad. din get to celebrate with any of them..

oh well. will prolly meet keng they all for dinner sooon. like i miss them freaking much la!
miss the suan-ing. hahaaha..

ching will finish her exams reaaaal soon. yippee. but i'm having band fest.
so we're gonna celebrate shannie dear's bdae at the zoo on 17th!! haha. before jo leaves for japan on 18th. and i finish bandfeest on 16th. hahaha. great planning aye. finally we 4 can hang out together. lol.

i miss all of u.

especially you

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feeling empty inside.
feelings beyond words can explain.

feel that my tear glands are gonna be active any moment.
but i have no idea why.

emofied shit. tt's me.

get this feelings outa me. i hate being this way.

a mask is worn.
smiles are covering the pain.
laughters are overpowering the sorrows.


i am still coping. still learning. i really am trying.

the knife will be a mere scratch at the heart.


i love u all.

especially you

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home sweet home.

saw the sun shining. finally! went for a swim.
den the dark clouds came.

got out. took a cab to sis's place.it started pouring heavily.

thank god it stopped by 4pm and i made my way to Buona Vista to meet e.T and mag.
made our way to Holland Village for Bandfest meeting.

thanks mohli for dinner.
did a bit of shopping. and ice cream.lol.

took a cab back to sis's place to pick mom up.

needa be in sch early tml morning for some enrolment shit.
spoil my morning plans to swim. argh.

oh well.
busy week ahead. take care all my lovesss..

especially you.

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guess which part of the house am i at?!

i'm at the gate! LOL.

my dear sis is stuck in the lift. poor her.
it has reached 17th floor. but refuses to open for her.
how hard she kicks. hits. pry open.

useless.

looks like only MR LIFT REPAIRMAN can help.

so here i am. sitting on the cold tiles at the gate. waiting for her.
niao.

wad a cold night.

take care of urself and i miss u.

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why is the weather still so bad?

sigh.

i wanna go to the pool. i wanna swim.

i wanna get tanned!!!!!

O mister sun sun, mister golden sun. pls shine down on me.
O mister sun sun, mister golden sun. hiding behind a tree.
these little children are asking you.

"please come out so we can play with you"!!

lol. some song i sing to lucas. love

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anyway.

went for a swim yday though it was like freezing cold with freaking strong winds.

but it was shiok.lol.

headed to town to meet shan and joce for shopping and movie.

ENCHANTED.

that was wad we caught.

Mcdreamy(Grey's Anatomy)=Robert(Enchanted)=Patrick Dempsey(Reality)

he's hot.

i found James Marsden hotter initially. but in this movie. he was like totally kiddish.
too bad. his character needed him to. lol.

got engrossed with all the singing and accent.
den dinner at xin wang.

wanted to give our dearest ching a surprise after her first paper.
so we waited at her sch.

DEN!! she called and said that she had her paper at EXPO.

how dumb of me. how can a BIG cohort squeeze into ACCA and take exams rite.

dumbass.
lol.

home sweet home.

i love them all.

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results out today. yikeees.

alright. i did good, i suppose.

2 HD. 1 DI. and 1 CR.

damn that CR. haha. it was a mark away to DI.

anyway.. all my friends did well.. soooo

CHEERS!!

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late nights. god. wad's happening to my biological clock.

not like i'm busy with stuff like mugging or reading into the night.

i'm just lazing on my freaking bed that seems to have lose it's magnetism to my tired mind.

haha.

guess i think toooo much b4 i doze off. i miss u still.always do. WHY! damn it.

out today with jun at parkway. did a lil window shopping. bought a book.

P.S I Love You.

read till chapt 10. if i'm her. i wonder wad i would do. i might join my husband in heaven instead of living bravely. alone.

i cannot imagine a day without my loved ones.

when that day comes. i'm not who i am. anymore.

i can just picture that ME.

haha.


i miss u. i really do. fark shit.

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photo updates! if u guys read earlier, u would have found out that i managed to attend Wang Chuan Yi's FanClub meeting at Kunion. haha. here are some pics of the boyy. lovely


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i declare..

1st Dec 2007 to be "Cursed Amanda" Day.

haha. starting off in the morning.

told mum i din wan any breakfast.but she bought carrot cake and forced it down me.
ate only half though. and dumped the rest to sis. lol.

supposed to bathe and get ready to go out. dad decided he needed to do "business".
and there, it was a loooooong one.

i ended up being late.

about to leave house. sis shouted for me to wait and go off tgt.

at bus stop, i missed the bus. and the next bus took 20mins to arrive.

loooooong journey to woodlands. alighted halfway and took a cab.

me: "hi.. khatib central pls."
driver: "oh. u mean yishun"
me: "err..no..khatib...central??"
driver: "ya laa.. yishun..."
me: "wadeva..just send me to KHATIB"
driver: "ore.. around YISHUN"

fark sia. we had a debate between to destinations.
isnt KHATIB and YISHUN different? they are different stations man.

luckily he din send me to YISHUN. i would kill him.

reach khatib safely. met weijie and xiufeng.
walked to cchy to see band. den...

BAND PRACT ENDED!

wad the hell la.

so we cracked our heads. and decided to KTV at AMK HUB.

isnt it an unlucky day for me?

things turned slightly better.

got WONDERFUL pictures from darling's hp.
and i saw HIM! DAREN TAN at AMK HUB judging for Channel U's BeatBox competition.

haha.

these will turn my luck better. i hope.


dinner at pepper lunch. haha. dinner? lunch? lol.

lame.

got a bit high. lol.

home sweet home.

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thurs, 29 Nov

this day has arrived. the day to bid our last goodbyes to the 5 young boaters who perished in Cambodia.

Singapore's honour and glory. you, 5 will all be remembered in one way or another by your family, friends, and strangers.

Rest in peace angels. for u are all in HIS kingdom.

alrite. met my girls in the afternoon for catching up. really missed u babes.
den we headed home.

got ready for wedding dinner. CONGRATS KELLY!
got to know this beautiful lady thru my first temp job back in feb this yr at OCBC.

she remembered me. lol.

met my old colleagues. uncle roland. lawrence. hweevoon. gina. engyen. xueyi. agnes. ray. and danlin.

missed my days there. damn. wished i could temp again in 2008.

if i do, means i will pon sch for a month. LOL

can i can i??

-i missed u.-


fri, 30 Nov.

last day of november. time passed realllll fast boy.

results out soon. next wed. pray.

spent my day at sis's place. the brat was hell of a noise.

but, we still love him. lukkie boyy.
[angels from up above, pls protect this boy.]

jade called! we chatted and laughed. mad girls. lol.

cant wait to see u all laaa. [germ. drew. nini. jade]

sem 2 is coming. another round of ice-breaking with new groupees.

drag.


[our eyes met. yet, not more than a line spoken. wtf.]

i tried. i did. but i failed.

grant me the chance.

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