i used to hate monday cos of the blues i get. but today was a goooood monday for me!
early in the morning, agent called me about a job. surveyor job. but i rejected. cos it required a lot of running around. even though the job is flexible cos its own time own target. but, nah. it really requires me to run left and right of singapore to get hold of my contacts to be interviewed. and who knows. i might end up spending my pay on travel fees.

so, i was abt to go back to bed. cos the weather is just sooooooo good to fall back into deep sleep.

who knows. another call came. the agent whom shan and i regarded as unprofessional actually called to inform me of a job opening! HAHA. well, its true that she was unprofessional. we emailed her our resumes and she didnt even call or reply back saying she has received it. and when shan emailed her again like after 2 weeks to ask if she has received it and if she has any job openings, she oso didnt reply!

!#$%^&*()*&^%$#@!#$%^&*(*&^%$#@!#$%^&*

until shan has found a job. and i decided to call this agent. and then, she told me. YA SHE HAS RECEIVED IT! niao her! well. she found me a job. still need to go thru interview.

hopefully i get it.

=)

had the best dream last night too. was with dajie and erjie. the setting was like at some beach. ma chiam The Hills. HAHA. think i OD on it. i really hope to see her in june. i wasted a month of being jobless. i have to think of other ways to get to her! wait for me!

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i'm at dajie's place this weekend. and i regretted not bringing swolly along. now i miss him.

i think i've drowned him with alot of tears. haha.

poor smelly dog. but i still love you swolly. though i have new additions to the toy collection. but u have been my oldest toy and the most faithful one to me.

well. guess its true when they say Dogs are Man's loyal friends.

HAHA. swolly is my best pal. =) hope he is feeling fine at home. it must be cold and quiet and lonely.

oh baby, im coming home soon.

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omo man. more and more celebs are down with H1N1! luckily it didnt spread within the boys. though saengie accompanied leader in Japan, but phew. he is clear. and so are the other 3 dongsaengs!

unlike shinee. poor them. first it was jonghyun. den onew. and now taemin.
seem likes girls in f(x) are also down with it. and korea's mr bean - Kim Joon is also down with it. oh no.

5555~~~

hope everyone is safe and sound.

baby baby~~

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my mind was slowly occupied by one issue and another and another and another. and soon, i found myself stuck in a sucky mood and i couldnt stop.

it was so quiet. just me and grandma. i just wanted to fall into deep sleep. but i couldnt. sat at the balcony with swolly. swolly seems to be the only THING that can hear me rant about everything that is happening to me. but sadly, he doesnt speak. all he, or rather IT, can ever do is give me warmth and comfort when i cuddle it tight.

and we spent hours at the balcony. until i dozed off on the chair. when i shocked myself up, it was already 5am. and i crawled back to my room. and i couldnt sleep.

damn. i wondered how long was i actually sleeping at the balcony.

well. tat was about it. im sorry. just very emotional. there arent any interesting posts about the boys. well, there were la. just don feel like mixing them with my sucky emotions.

i miss you.

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drowned in tears.

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no offence. the post is titled like that cos i have no idea what it should be.

going back to school later at 3pm for another chit chat session. keeping my fingers crossed. hope that its something good.

sick and tired of this shit. some people just cannot take responsibilities. fucking idiots. ARGH!

i feel so cooped up here. i wanna go out, yet i have to worry for leaving her alone here. why cant the fuck she just go over and stay for the week when dad's not here. wont it make ALL OUR LIVES MUCH EASIER?! and when i do go out, i have to rush home by 8pm? FUCK YOU MAN! even my mother doesnt restrict what time i come home. so why should you?! tell your own son to come home at 8pm to look after his grandmother la. i wonder what brilliant excuses he will give just to run. so if he can, WHY CANT I?! damn fucking annoyed this holidays.

i hate it. i really want to work. becos of money and becos i don have to be here 24hrs ard HER!

argh!!!!!!

results going to be out soon. sigh. i wonder how i will fare.

it seems like i dont know you anymore. i cant talk to you like before. im afraid of hurting you with comments i make. yet, i wanna know whats going on with you. your whole life seems to have changed. well. i guess, we all do change.


what the fuck am i talking about.

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boring weekend ahead. i hope my stupid agent calls me ASAP man. i really want to get my ass out and work! i hate being poor. i hate lazing around the house like a bum.

argh!

but, if i do start work. i have to give up 9hrs of fangirl-ing! hahahaha!

going for dinner later at Paragon's Sushi Tei. celebrating Mr Keng's 24th Bird-day! old uncle. HAHA.

OH AND YES YES YES! IM GOING TO GET BETTER INTERNET CONNECTION! we're going to cancel our internet plans with starhub and jump over to singtel...

wheeeeeeeeeeeeee. i can watch youtube without needing to wait for an hour till it finish buffering! HAHAHA.

but, im still keep my cablebox with starhub. i don wanna lose my life.

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WHOOOOOOPEEEEEDOOOOODEEEEEDOOOOO! WE WON AGAIN! 2nd time in Music Bank! and we were up against 2pm! omg la. thought they might win becos of album sales...

BUT........................


SORRY HOTTESTS! hahahaha. here are some pics of baby after winning~~~



baby~~WOOHOO! YES YES! hahaha.



kimhyungjun~~

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rain rain go away! i hate the rain! i hate the cold weather! cant even go parkway. cant go for my swim. cant go for my run. argh!

annoyed.

hate battling the rain with an umbrella!

anyway, the letter has arrived. and i cried at the letterbox while i opened it. sigh. big disappointment. yes, it failed. i wasnt granted! sigh.

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well, i did mention i did a little shopping during the past few months rite. so here are my fangirl purchases! HAHAHA.


this is their mini album - Rebirth. heehee.


and this is their U R MAN SPECIAL ALBUM! <3

more to come~~

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well, the netizens have nothing better to do. so they decided to dig up past photos of the boys and start making comments and stirring a news, making people question "Have the boys been under the knife too?"...

OBVIOUSLY NOT, MORONS! go dig other people and leave them alone! hmpf!

well, the news wasnt making very negative or hurting remarks. but, you know. netizens always got nothing better to do. they love to make something small grow and erupt! damn them.

here's a kyute pic of kyujong which shan and i missed before. how could we. tsk tsk. but, i found it eventually. heehee.



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good news. shan and i received a call from Success. job opening. for a month (better than nothing). hoping that the Bank that is hiring will shortlist both of us. we can lunch and gossip together in the same dept!! HAHA.



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I see your face in my mind as I drive away,
Cause none of us thought it was gonna end that way.
People are people,
And sometimes we change our minds.
But its killing me to see you go after all this time.

Mmm mmm mmm
Mmm mmm mmm mmm mmm
Mmm mmm mmm
Mmm mmm mmm mmm mmm

Music starts playin like the end of a sad movie,
Its the kinda ending you dont really wanna see.
Cause its tragedy and itll only bring you down,

Now I dont know what to be without you around.
And we know its never simple,
Never easy.
Never a clean break,
no one here to save me.
Youre the only thing I know like the back of my hand,
And I cant,Breathe,
Without you,
But I have to,
Breathe,
Without you,
But I have to.

Never wanted this, never wanna see you hurt.
Every little bump in the road I tried to swerve.
But people are people,
And sometimes it doesnt work out,
Nothing we say is gonna save us from the fall out.

And we know its never simple,
Never easy.
Never a clean break, no one here to save me.
Youre the only thing I know like the back of my hand,
And I cant,
Breathe,
Without you,
But I have to,
Breathe,
Without you,
But I have to.

Its two a.m.
Feelin' like I just lost a friend.
Hope you know its not easy,
Easy for me.
Its two a.m.
Feelin like I just lost a friend.
Hope you know this aint easy,
Easy for me.

And we know its never simple,
Never easy.
Never a clean break,
no one here to save me.
Ohhh
I cant,
Breathe,
Without you,
But I have to,
Breathe,
Without you,
But I have to.

Sorry (oh) Sorry (mmm)
Sorry (eh eh) Sorry (mmm)
Sorry (eh eh) Sorry (mmm)

Sorry

another nice song by taylor swift. =)

up and about early in the morning. couldnt sleep. and got woken up by the loud voices of granny and my aunt and dad grumbling about everything under this house. seriously, my aunt should stop poking her big damn ass into my family's business. if she was so fucking great, tell her brother that he's the cause of everything. he's the cause of why everyone is leaving this house and throwing his mother to him (which obviously he doesnt want responsibility in). they keep ranting and ranting about us being selfish. about us thinking for ourselves, that when we go out of this house and abandon the old lady alone, we are not caring for her. we are throwing her to defend and look after herself.

so what. am i to stay home 24hrs to look after her? what if i found a job? what about days i have school? this is ridiculous. it wasnt as if there arent other options. didnt we decided to put her at the other aunt's place during weekdays? just becos the old lady is a worried-freak, we cancel out that option? and that aunt over that has the easiest days of her life of not putting in the slightest efforts in looking after?

you people are tired? you people complaint you are very very very very extremely busy and stressed. COME ON! you don even see your mother for what 4x a year? you dont even know what the fuck her medications are for or when should they be given till a month ago! and you are telling me, YOU ARE TIRED!

you guys are complaining that we are selfish. we are doing things that we like. think about it. all these years, who was the selfish one? who was the mean one? who said nasty stuff about her grandchildren? who said nasty stuff about her daughter-in-law? who sided her own favourite son when he did wrong?

i guess. this sums up to what we call. RETRIBUTION!

i dont want to be mean. i want to be patient and start caring for her. but the people around me are making me detest everything here.

FUCK YOU.

everything was so peaceful and quiet when i was alone. why cant everything just return back to how it was. stop making everyone's lives so fucked up becos you are worried about the slightest things.

ARGH!

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the weekends are over just like that. they didnt speak a single word. sigh. how did things turn out to be like that? its bad, isnt it? i should have gotten used to it. but, this time. i couldnt.

and it sucks.

so much stuff running through my mind now. results. scholarship. school fees. tuition. part time job....................sigh

i'm not even in the mood to watch the boys now. i just wanna rot on my bed and fall into deep deep deep sleep.

wake me up when all these shit ends.

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up and about so early. my body clock is seriously WRONG. it is in need of some fixing!

So. here's what i have planned for the day.

gonna meet guoxian later for coffee at 11pm. den off i am to meet my san jie, jamie tang at amk. we're going to see june and baby kate!! =) =) =)

dinner will be at Mirama Hotel. Gonna celeb my uncle's 60th birthday!

WOW! alot of running about. left and right! =)

i cant wait to see jamie tang! i miss her so much!

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heehee. baby so pretty. cant stand it! 小混混，dont fall sick!!!!!!!!





and so, let me update a bit on today. went to leisure park to catch 2012 with shan. the effects and sounds were good. storyline was just like any other dooms day movie. but this was extremely emotional and....creepy?

well, before the movie came out. i believe everyone read about the 2012 thingy on the news. and that IT MIGHT REALLY happen. so for me, after reading the news, i have the creeps. i hate death and byebyes. and after watching the movie, it just made me feel worse.

is this what its going to be like? will you have the final chance to say your last goodbyes? your last "I am SORRY"? your last "I LOVE YOU"?

i stoned abit after the movie. was still recovering from the effects of the entire earth cracking up and burying millions and billions of people. and of cos, recovering from the tears i shed during super touching moments.

to pre-empt yourself of what might really happen in 2012. go catch the movie.

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finally got my fat ass back to jogging. shioks man. just ran and ran and ran.

so sweets. all 5 of them took pics with this small kid. but of cos, i only post baby's. hahaha.

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To chop, or not to chop?

To rebond, or not to rebond?

To dye, or not to dye?

DAMN IT!

hahaha. yes, im thinking of a new hairdo. i wanna make it short like maybe somewhere above the bra cup. but, when i see youtube videos on makeup and hair tutorials. those long smooth hair make me think twice about cutting.

but, when i see the amount of hair that falls off during my shower. and the knots and tangles. damn, they sure make me wanna chop it short!

SIGH. stuck.

anyway, the boys are off the China. Shanghai Persona! FIGHTING!

when will it be Singapore? Please do come. =)

小混混, FIGHTING!

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heehee. i love my 小混混. heehee. taken at recording of Open Concert! AND. I LOVE KBS WORLD. those who have Cable Tv. KBS WORLD ROCKS! haha. i caught a show of them. and i hope there are many many more.... heehee. star golden bell. dream team. music bank. champagne. happy dooo deeee doooo. my 小混混!!!!

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met up with xiufeng and kenny for dinner at Central. Korean food at Seoul Yummy. perfect. great food. great music (cos SS501 was singing when we were eating. okay, along with a few others like super junior, shinee, 2pm, wondergirls....) hahaha. and cute waiter too! kekeke.
hahaha. smile until so happy. heehee. baby joonie~ <3
i am a very happy girl today. finally got hold of the pictorial books. made payment for the 5year 5men dvd! i shall upload pics of my fangirl shopping! HAHAHAHAHA.



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god. its near to 2am now. and im supposed to be in bed. nicely tucked in. and dreaming away. i have an interview at 9am! and i have to be in school by 830! god. help me. save me. sedate me! and its an interview! i hate interviews. i always feel like peeing into my pants. and i always have this "laughing" attack.

before any interview, i always feel like i was injected with laughing gas. i always feel like giggling here and there. damn man.

dont know good or bad.
good tat im not having this yaya face thru the interview.
bad tat they think IM AM SIAO!

hahaa.

alrights. wish me luck. first round of interview! fighting!

hyungjoonie~~~~love this baby.

annyong~

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exams are over! wheee. but, im jobless. and my agent is fucking inefficient.

saturday evening was a date with ching and shan. after papers, shan and i went town to meet ching. had dinner at taka's mos. chit chit chat chat laugh laugh gossip gossip. walked around abit to get stuff. and then, desserts at The Big O (i think this is what it is). cant remember correctly. their mudpies, cakes and ice creams are just heavenly! HAHA. den home sweet home. ching ching, study hard sweets! shan shan, enjoy your hols! HAHAHAHA.

stayed over at dajie's place. sunday morning was shiok. early breakfast and went ard to different warehouses to get cheapo stuff! HAHA. and yes. i fell into a DRAIN! not those big ones. it's those semi-circle ones along the roads where kittens and cats love to hide.

yes. my entire right foot went in. so here's the story. my jiefu parked along the road. we went out for breakfast. heading back to the car. i was chatting with him about nyc and boston. he went to the front seat and i went to the back. open the car door. stretch left foot onto pavement. the right foot was somewhere right inside the drain with leaves and water. gross. totally gross.

it all happened tooo quickly. i wasnt even sure where my foot were actually. HAHA. shan asked me "isnt the drain abit small for your foot to go right in?"

exactly! its small. and my giant foot went right in! can u imagine how my ankle got scrapped along the cement?!?! so yeah. it did. luckily not badly. just minor scratches and aloe vera can heal it quick. the biggest bump was actually on my elbow! HAHA. funny right. the part that was furthest from the drain had the worst injury. HAHA. i hit it against the car. and i think there's a dent in the car. cos my elbow FUCKING HURTS! there was a big bump like some bone sticking out. IT IS @!$#%^&*()&^%$#@#$%^&*(&^%$# PAINFUL! hahaha.

lucas had a shock tat his ah-yi went into the drain. he went "oh oh. amanda ah yi fall down". hahaha. fucking cutes.

=)

so thats my post-exams weekends celebration. later i'll be going out with mummy. heehee

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hello baby joon! taken while the boys went on Suju's Sukira on 6th Nov. they look soooo tired. hope none of them are sick man! fighting!


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YEA YEA YEA. they are up against Shinee! FIGHTING!

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haha. time really flies man. 3 weeks back, the mugging period just started for shan and i and those in same course as us. NOW, we are like 24 hrs away from our final paper for the year! very fast hor!

and 3 weeks ago, dajie and jiefu left for boston. and now, they are coming back already! tonight, midnight! HAHA! so so so fast! they bought me a couple of clothings and a coach hp strap! but hors, i think i forgot to tell her...my blackberry now... CANNOT HANG ANYTHING ANYWHERE! hahaha. fucking funny. bet she will strap my neck and eyeballs together! but, i did tell her i wanted a wallet. who ask her kuku neh neh buy hp strap. and i always say... its the most BO HWA branded thing to buy la! i rather a keychain lor! hahaha. oh well. at least she bought me something! haha. oh oh oh. and all my OPI nailpolish. and and and.. MAC shadestick! hahahaha. i ma chiam go on shopping spree right. heehee. but, all these hors.... ARE FREE LEH. hahahahahaha. neh neh ni bu bu. envious right! hahaha. oh oh oh! and not forgetting!! MY WHITE CHOCOLATE MACADEMIA COOKIES!! hahahahahaha.

yums. now i really cant wait for price theory to be done and out with. =)


omg. u know something. i fucking sound like an ah-lian above la! haha. must be the influence of those fangirls on forums. ^_^

HAHAHAHAHA.

/^-^\ haha. wonder what the hell is this. looks like a dog with / \ as ears. or a girl with / \ as hair! go figure.

muacks.

joonie~~don be disheartened! i believe you and your hyungs will win inkigayo! Love Like This.

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no. the title of the blog isnt a song. HAHA. i only have ONE paper left for this sem and i am so done with exams.

hmmm. the past 3 papers. lets see. macro, i din finish. risk mgmt, it sucked. business finance, it came as a shock. i think what many of us are praying for now is...MODERATION.

haha. i just wanna get price theory over and done with.

i have some pics of baby and kyu. but lazy to upload. hahahaha! too bad den.

*bobo*

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counting down to my next paper. im very exhausted. losing concentration and getting distracted easily!

DIE LAA! haha. im already planning what to buy and what to eat on saturday! what to do on sunday? tues, where to go?

HAHAHA.

GOOD LUCK! ALL THE BEST!! FIGHTING!

oh, dont know issit good or bad. hyunjoongie-leader has a new assignment. a role in a movie! means, more work and busier schedules! pls dont become weak like how u did for BOF! haha.

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i know this aint the time to get all emotional and whiny and missy about the good old days. but, i cant help it. was just flipping through year books, old albums, diaries, neoprints and any other random stuffs that triggered my mind back to old days.

they all came and went. just like that. maybe it's really high time to take a step back and look at the things around me.

forgive and forget?

anyway, im left with 2 papers. Business Finance. Price Theory.

To BDEFT 6th Intake: good luck! and CHIONG AH! hahaha.

To friends i know from other classes taking the same papers as well, GOOD LUCK!
[yenpei, jacinda, suyuan, and you]

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blardy blogger. i was happily posting pictures and typing. and when i clicked "publish post". EVERYTHING DISAPPPEARED and the word ERROR popped up in my face. oh my pictures. my long post. sob. now i don feel like re-writing. i shall just let your eyes or rather mine feast on some of joon's pictures. finally his hair is flat down again for The M! recording today! heehee.

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HEE HEE! they had a stamping session yesterday(or was it the day before, whatever). and they celebrated saengie's birthday! heehee. officially 24 on 3rd November! =)


aigoo~ you look so cute and chubby here! YOUNGSAENGIE OPPA, HAPPY BIRTHDAY! *saengil chukha hamnida~~saengil chukha hamnida~~ saranghae youngsaengie~~~ saengil chukha hamnida!!!* Rebirth will be a HIT and we will win Music Bank and Inkigayo!!!! FIGHTING!

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2 more papers! just two more papers! come on come on!! im losing energy and faith already. the more i do, the more tired and sian i get. i wanna give up. but im afraid. sigh.

lord, help!

ive been damn distracted!! youtube! allkpop!! soompi!!! tieba!!!! etc etc etc. and all sorts of links on THEM! and now with their posters in my drawer!!

goodness!

HELP!

its sad that they lost twice to shinee. but, we have faith! hwaiting! SS will win this week! *pray*

counting down to youngshimi's birthday! heeheehee

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YEAH YEAH YEAH! the album is here! Rebirth mini album, korean version. limited edititon! along with diary and posters!

hahaha. well, my seller posted the items out on 28th. and i tot it would arrive in like 2 days. BUT NO! it didnt! and i panicked! then today, i found out that the fucking postman actually mailed the items to the wrong unit!

U FUCKING ASSHOLE! U KNOW HOW MUCH THEY COST! IDIOTS!

=)

well, at least. its safe in my arms now.

HAHAHAHAHA

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and so, if you guys read from previous posts (that is if there is ANYONE reading), you would have read about my 5th floor boy. HAHA.

well, i did tell my mom about this boy when i first noticed him. and i even asked her if she knew whose son was he. she completely had no idea. and so.... here comes the exciting part.

earlier in the night at bout 1030. i came home with dad mom and lucas from my cousin's 21st bdae dinner. while waiting for the lift.... someone appeared. YES! HELLLLLLOOOO MR 5th FLOOR! hahahahaha. he was in his like pjs. so we all entered the lift and i gave my mom eye signal like "there! this one! 5th floor". and my mom took the hint. and she mumbled out..."this one ah". well, it was quite soft. but the lift was so quiet. i guess, HE HEARD???? hahahaha.

i swear i nearly fainted. so, continuing. he pressed 5th floor. and he turned ard. stared at me. looked down and stared at lucas. smiled at him. and he looked up and smiled at my mom. god.

i think he thinks i am lucas's mother!!!!!

SOB SOB SOB.

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