its the holy week. as i approach good friday, i reflect upon my deeds the past yr. seek forgiveness. and ask HIM to continue to watch over me and my loved ones and friends. HE never abandons anyone. not even me, depite me walking away 6yrs back.

continue my baby steps. making that little effort day by day to strengthen my relationship with him and my faith.

day in day out, i pray for your safety wherever you are, whatever you do, whoever you meet... To: ching. shan. joce. mag. xiufeng. helen. janet. keng. kenny. bird. menghiang.mummy. dad. grandma. lucas. erjie. dajie. jiefu.

through my darkest periods, u guys have been here.

<3

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i believe many of you have seen and heard how this pair of twins have sung soo beautifully. Their greatest hit video was "Officially Missing You". and i found this song that i really loved to sing in church. and they did their rendition of it. perfect. they are blessed by god for such perfect voices to touch the hearts of viewers. =)



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Lord, i come to you
Let my heart be changed, renewed
Flowing from the grace
That i found in You

And Lord I've come to know
The weaknesses i see in me
Will be stripped away
By the power of your love

Hold me close
Let your love surround me
Bring me near
Draw me to your side

And as i wait
I'll rise up like the eagle
And i will soar with you
Your spirit leads me on
In the power of your love

Lord unveil my eyes
Let me see you
Face to Face
The knowledge of you love
As you live in me

Lord, renew my mind
As your Will unfolds in my life
In living every day
By the power of your love

Hold me close
Let your love surround me
Bring me near
Draw me to your side

And as i wait
I'll rise up like the eagle
And i will soar with you
Your spirit leads me on
In the power of your love


Heavenly Father, please watch over your sick child. Please grant her peace in her day. Please calm her anxious heart and draw her close to your side. Father, do not forsake me on this path. hold my hands and bring me to light.

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alot of things are running through my mind now. seriously. esp when its my final semester. there's investment assignment which is such a headache. there are tests tat are dated near assignment due date. plus there is my future career search.

after 3 years, i think ive wasted my time and money. i don have a clue as to which area i wanna work in. my vacation jobs are all shit jobs. except for the internship. sigh. im in a miss. a big mess.

不时不想毕业，只是不想长大。

i feel useless in comparison to many who are level-headed, who know what they want in life, who knows their directions and goals and those who take things at their stride and handle such pressures easily.

i feel like a totally loser. every minute im afraid of affecting the feelings of people around me. im afraid of saying things or doing things that make them unhappy. esp at such stressful period, i know many people are at standing at the edge.

sigh. i really hate this. i dont want to grow up.

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i dont need to say more. i just dont feel like saying. i only want to cry out loud. but, not a single sound is made. only tears that keep flowing and flowing and flowing.

i hate this feeling. i hate being alone.

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a month back, i was patient enough to hear you rant and rant and rant about whatever you are facing. and i stupidly believe that you are serious on moving on. but, i guess u fell back to where things ended.

and im disappointed. becos the of the very fact that once again, you forgot the term "friends" when then you said that things are gonna change for now.

but look, guess what happens?

all i have to say is... SERVE YOU RIGHT!

and ive really learnt that it doesnt pay to be nice. cos i aint gonna listen like before. if u wanna share, all i prolly will ever do is nod at every single thing u say and shut up comments. tats final.

ore-bit good! serve you right! 你真是活该！

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Disclaimer: I have no responsibility or liability towards
1) any severe injuries to your lungs caused by laughing at the following lame post;
2) any severe injuries to your eyeballs or eyesocket caused by rolling of eyeballs as you read;
3) any other severe injuries that would affect your mental state...

i know its kinda ridiculous to be thinking about this right now, cos im definitely no where near that stage. to put it sadly, im not even at stage 1, whats more being at the Grand Finale - Marriage.

For those who are in a hot, long-lasting relationship, have you ever thought about how you are going to propose (for guys) or how you want to be proposed to (for girls)?

well, as for me, this is what i came up with when i was on my way home this evening from orchard. it isnt going to be one of those trips on hot-air balloons and being proposed to when we are dont know how many feet above the ground. tats cause im afraid of heights and my future-prospective-boy should know better. it also isnt going to be one of those times where i am standing at one end of a long long long shaky bridge in the forest and he on the other end trying to make his way towards me with a bouquet of flowers and proclaiming his love for me. it also isnt going to be those scuba-diving way of proposing when we are both down underwater at the seabed in Tioman Island. well, if i were to choose, TIOMAN pls.

but anyway, here's what i came up with. So, im on my way home from somewhere. my smart future-prospective-boy should be able to find out (somehow) about the route im taking to reach home. and along the way, he pops up the bus with a bouquet of flowers (ps: those who know me should know the type of flowers i adore dearly) and pops the question in front of every other passenger. of cos, he should be smart enough to check if im on that same bus or not. otherwise, throw face (shan's words).

haha. and of cos, with all the persuasions by passengers who care, i will have to say yes (with alot of embarrassment). but who gives a fuck, cos i aint seeing those passengers ever again, right? muahahahaha.

i know. this is cheesy, lame, stupid, bimbotic. whatever. i like. hmpf.

thanks to mr.champagne rose who boarded the bus today. he gave me this idea! haha.

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hahaha when i hit post #1000, i will celebrate! i have had this blog since hmmm 2004? lol. cant remember. look back on the archives for those who are still reading this pathetic blog of mine which is filled with whines, complaints, and fangirlings. HAHAHA..

well anyway, OPI is the latest craze now. haha. thanks to shan, we have a favourite site now! muahah muahah!

so i just painted my nails and i did a swatch. god, issit tat my camera kinda sucks or tat the OPI is light reflective? haha. i dont know. its totally DIFFERENT. on me, it looks pink. but in pic, its purple! goodness.

anyway. its from OPI Hong Kong Collection called Lucky Lucky Lavender. as the name suggests, it should have a tinge of purple somewhere inside. but it shudnt be totally purple like in the pic. haha. goodness. but whatever, i love it!

2nd order on the way!!!



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