God. The man who has saved me from my darkest hours. The man who has sent His Son to sacrifice his life for me who was born of a sinner. The man who has assured me of His blessings in my life. The man who has held me when i am scared. The man who has protected me from pains. The man who has walked with me through times of trials and tribulations. The man who has loved me unconditionally. He is my Father. He is my King. He is GOD. Yes, that is just a brief introduction to my spiritual Father who has created me and gave me new life. He has never forsaken me. I know all these in my heart. and i have sinned against Him many times when my emotions overflow and have created a fog in my spiritual life. many times, i uphold the belief that the Lord loves me and He knows what is best for me. But, deep down inside, i am fearful. i am scared. i am uncertain. How can i hold on tight to His Word of assurance and deliverance? I know i should. I know i must. But, why is it that sometimes my mind doesnt coordinate with my heart and my spirit? The recent situation that i am in now really made me stumble upon my faith and walk with the Lord. Do i really have that courage and confidence to trust Him fully, with all my heart and might? Or, am i just building a false front to make people think that i am really bold in my faith? I am not. I am weak. His Words has reminded me time and time again to be patient, to wait upon His promises in my life, to believe in my prayers to him, etc. And i thank God for these timely reminders in the situation that i am in. really. I just need a time off all these and breathe. i need to take a step back and see where all these are leading to. Father, if you have sent your people to counsel me, then Lord i pray and ask that they approach me soon because i dont have what it takes to make that first step to speak. Father, i also pray that as i speak to my counsellor, may You anoint my lips and heart to share as openly and as honestly as i can. Father, i also pray that whatever plans that follow after will be smooth and positive. You know me through and through, Lord. I dont have what it takes to go through another round of being brokenhearted especially if this involves a brother in Charis. Father, i pray that Your favour be bestowed upon the friendship that we share and that Lord you continue to bless us in our individual walk with You as we continue to build that personal and sacred relationship with You. Father, i thank you for listening to me because You are my Father and i know i am Your blessed child. Father, i pray that Your Words and comfort continue to feed me as i walk through each day. All these i pray in the name of Jesus, AMEN!

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