YESTERDAY, FRI 27th Jan '06

well.. went back to school.
din do SPE coz i had MC.
joce and i had fun playing cards.
farhan came to join us.
soon SPE ended.

went to the hall for the concert celebration
me chingie joce farhan andrew & longhui.

ended at bout 1210.
went to meet mag.
settled cards and pressies.

played cards till 1250.
me chingie joce andrew longhui
left for town.

crowded. hot. tired.

but fun.

bout the bdae present after so many shops.

heh heh.

farhan came to meet us.
went for lunch.
played cards again.

and we separated.

me..
went to meet erjie and dajie at wisma.
walked from centrepoint to wisma.

panting. tired. hot. crowded.

went to fareast to shop.
den went back to wisma for dinner.

met acjc pple along the way.

reached wisma.
went to the restaurant.
jie-fu came.

MAKAN TIME!

walked over to paragon to have coffee.

chatted. laughed.

fun fun. <3

TODAY, SAT 28th Jan '06

CHINESE NEW YEAR EVE!

weee... supposed to be out.

but din feel too well.

kept coughing and coughing.

bleeding.

sigh. rested. watched tv. coughed.

all alone at home.

erjie out to make her hair.
mum & dad out for lunch.
grandma went to see uncle in hospital.

sigh. coughed. yawns.

anyway. take care my friends whu are ill.
[ mr toh. xiufeng. boonhwee. mag. jocelyn...etc etc.. ]

=lilo= i miss u badly.
=kenny= dun sianded kies. miss ya.
=menghiang= how ya doing. i miss u too.
=jun= glad that u enjoyed ur orientation thingy.

=lynnie= thanks for being there gal. hugs.
=chingie= take care kies. love ya.
=shannie= heh heh. fruit and chocolate rocks. hugs.
=chowie= take care gal. hugs.

=mag= hang in there gal. smiles. i miss the old days where smiles juz come easily.
=daphne= take care gal. love ya. enjoy.
=grace= dun stress so much kies. relax. hugs.
=bh= hope u're doing fine.. =)

=CLARINET SECT '06= hey peeps. happy new year. all the best in the year of doggie. =)

=CLARINET SECT '05= MISS YA GUYS BADLY!!!! take care and happy new year!! =)

+you+ take care.

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you have ur problems...

i could not understand...

and i yelled...

nothing more to say..

but...

S O R R Y ! ! !

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oh well.. here i am... at home.. blogging..

sick sick sick...

been coughing badly the past few days..

thanks to my dear friends ard me whu cares.. =)

u guys take loads loads care yeah...

oh well.. on sunday, 22 Jan..

went to meet xiufeng at esplanade!

haha.. i was late due to rain and no cabs.
argh..

lolz.. oh well..

siimply loved the gifts xiufeng gave me!!

2 pair of earrings and a panda keychain!!!!
[ miss u sooo much.. thanks for the gift... <3]

haha.. we had fun time durin interval and after concert...

weeeee...lolz...

met up with weijie and we went to marina sq for dinner..

lolz.. it's been so long since we last met up...

so glad we did... heh heh...

[ miss my lilo soo much... ]

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well..

today was a long day in sch..

wasnt feeling too well..

coughing quite badly..

hmmz.. but time passed v fast lehz.

soon it was gp lect and sch's over!

lolz..

went to cs with jac shan ching and xinni.

den left me and shan to do some window shopping.

took a bus back home.

dropped by at parkway to take a walk..

realised tat the tops i like.... ARE GONE.. wad the...

there goes my new year clothes. great.

last min.

argh.

here i am at home.

blehz.

cough cough.


+ our eyes met +

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well well...

maybe i shud juz care less...

once a person care less... hear less... know less....

less worries??

less pains??

less troubles??

a person whu care less....

definitely is much more carefree....

hmmz... mayb this is wad i shud be...

yup...

i will be wad u wan me to be...

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SCREAMS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i got shocked..

was on msn.. den the lights went off...

and i shrieked!!

i am super super duper scared of DARKNESS!!!

ran out of my room and screamed.

i went mad.




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to all my friends whu are troubled...


[[[ DO NOT fear for HE is with YOU.
[[[ DO NOT be dismayed for HE is YOUR God.
[[ HE will stregthen YOU and help YOU.
[ HE will uphold YOU.
[[ With HIS righteous right hand.. ]]

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couldnt sleep last nite.

was irritated by my throat.

it hurt like mad.

so woke up and drank water.

but.

it din help.

BOO.

so i stood awake.

from 3 to bout 4 plus.

listened to my mp3.

S.H.E 's tian hui.

finally dozed off.

woke up again at 830.

boo.

went to church.

saw a couple of friends.

went for lunch with dad and mum.

went straight home.

and i took a nap.

got woken up by jac's 2nd call.

=)

bored.


mag : i noe it is hard. parents are all the same. smile gal. dun frown. u still have friends. =)
love ya.

daph : after so long, finally can take a walk with u in sch. lolz. love ya too. =)

ilu : take care galz... u 4 siimply rock my world!!

snowie : i miss u badly.. take care kies... though we are far apart.. i at marine drive.. u at sengkang.. but we both fell ill.. hugs.. =) love ya...

kenny : january ending le... soon u will be back for gd.. yippee! take care at aust..miss ya bro..

menghiang : gal.. take care kies.. so sorry cant spend time with u... once u are alrite.. i promise u to a treat of ice-cream..hugs..love ya..

jun : wei wei wei.. u MIA sia.. lolz.. busy at sch huh... take care... =)




+ here i am lord. i have come to do your will. +

= thank you for the cross lord. thank you for the price you paid.
bearing all my sin and shame. in love you came. gave amazing grace. =
= thank you for this love lord. thank you for the nails pierced hands.
wash me in your cleansing flow. now all i know. your forgiveness and embrace. =

[[ as i sat silently by the window,
[ your face came to my mind.
[[ there're so many things i wanna tell you.
[ but i lack the courage.
[[ tears begin to flow.
[ i tried to control every drop.
[[ but i failed.
[ it hurts so badly inside.
[[ like a thousand nails.
[ piercing through this fragile heart
[[ if you din appear into my life.
[ would i be happier ? ]]


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<3 aloha!! <3 

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<3 heehee... snowie snowie...!! see this...?? i miss u lehz!! boohoo..i noe u are sick.. take care yeahs...? hugs.. <3 

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oh well...

i am super super sick..

past few days have been taking junk food..

hardly home to eat grandma's cooking..

sigh...

my throat is sore... bet the tonsils are swollen again..

sigh...


supposed to be at amanda yee's bdae party...
so sorry i cant make it there...

[ HAPPY 18th BDAE AMANDA!!!! =) ]

oh well...

so here i am..
all alone at home with erjie...
boohoohoo...

cant even go parkway to window shop!!!
my throat hurts!!

=(



+ wish u were here +

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well well.. i finally start blogging...


lolz..

hmmz... congrats to ching whu has finally got into the blogging daily mode...lolz..
she used to blog like once in wad.. 4mths?

lolz.. kidding... hope u're feeling alrite gal.. hang in there...ilu is always here yupz??
*jiayou*

alrite...

skipped a couple of lessons yday..wanted to study chem with ching shan and joce...
but.. we ended up playing bridge..!! gosh..

as usual lar..

so we went to the library to start the momentum going..

it was sooo hard to concentrate...

we were giggling.. crapping.. singing...pengz..

shan ching and i decided we need coffee...

so off we went to the canteen and grabbed a can of nescafe!!

it took quite awhile for the effect of the coffee to react...

lolz... soon.. the engine in us was ON...!!

FINALLY RITE....lolz..

oh well..soon it was chem test... was quite alrite..
but i totally gave up on alcohol and phenols..

lolz...

after dat was band orientation...

played double whacko..
and i kana forfeit with grace and others as well...

lolz..it was sooo fun..

[ a big thank u to all the J2s whu have helped out in one way or another...
[ a big thank u to all J1s whu participated sportingly!! lolz.. u guys were great!! ]

oh well.. den went walk walk with daph and mag... sat outside seasports room and crapped..
took pics and all..haha..

den xinni showed me something...

wasnt quite pleased.. but come to think of it...

nahz.. wadeva.. at least pple noe me thru that..lolz.. kiddin la.. so BHB...

den alumni had their meeting and ended at bout near 9...

cabbed to parkway's macs with mag...

waited for boonhwee...

soon franz and jackson came...

had a fun time with them... =)

take care pple....



+ there are many things stuck on my mind...
on the verge of blurting every single detail out...
but i noe i will regret terribly... so i shall keep mum... +

i duno wad will happen if i told u...
so i shall let go... and keep hold of this friendship we are having...

till foreva....



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time is ticking by.... my fragile heart breaks...like a wiltered rose... 

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lovely isnt it.. wished i had a home there... so i can be all alone.. quiet and peaceful...... 

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sitting all alone..as i clear my troubled mind... silence fills the air... =( 

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how i wish u were by my side.. to view this magnificent scenary.. 

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<3 me and my beloved sisters!! siimply love them!! <3 

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<3 me and my 2nd cake!! <3 

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<3 cake that mummy bought!! <3 

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<3 from boonhwee... <3 

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<3 from ilu and class <3 =) 

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<3 from ms lee and ms koh <3 

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okok i shall include the pics of my pressies!!

haha..

thanks to boonhwee for the clarinet...

thanks to ms lee and ms koh for the preetty earrings...

thanks to my class 05S21 for the preeeetttty wallet and cake...!!

thanks to ilu for the hilarious pictures!!

I LOVED MY BDAE!!!!!!!!!!!!!

<3>

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<3 the F.U <3 ( dun worry.. no vulgarities.. ) =) 

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<3 the ladies <3 ( on phone with ms koh ) =) 

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<3 me & my cake !! <3 

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<3 my besties !! ( miss shannie ) <3 

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<3 the group that made my day <3 =) 

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<3 taken by ms lee <3 

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<3 about to cut the delicious cake <3 =) 

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<3 + ching & guirong + <3 

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<3 guirong ching longhui paul jeff <3 

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weeeeeeeeeezzzzzzzzzzzz.......!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i finally turn 18 !!

lolz.. really enjoyed myself to the core yday..

siimply love the bunch of peeps...

[ ilu ryan paul mark daryl jeffrey longhui guirong ]

of coz not forgetting MS LEE and MS KOH!!

lolz.. it's a pity tat the whole class cant make it...

but thanks for ur bdae wishes and sms-es..thanks so much...

so the grp of us met at Tampines interchange at 630..

set out at 7 and reached bout 730.

it was drizzling.. *boo*

anyway.. we were split up into 2 tables to get more discount..

lolz.. my table spent quite a bit more...

*weee*

thanks so much to mark and joce as the shang wo de lian
and drank sips of beer...lolz... =)

well.. after tat we had cake.. siimply delicious..

and den they gave me my pressie....

THE WALLET I LOVED!!!!! lolz...

ms lee and ms koh gave me 2 pairs of earrings...

so sweet...!! lolz.. i am soooo happy!! lolz...

so about 10..we left the place... we split into 3 cabs
and went to parkway to play pool...

really glad to be in a class of great friends!!

it was the best bdae celebration..!

thanks to all for making this day so memorable for me!!

love ya all..*muacks*

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well...

today is CCA EXHIBITION...

was rather hectic and busy going round to give out gifts

and attract "customers"...

hmmm... after tat we resumed band pract..

dr lee couldnt make it as he fell ill...
[ do take care... ]

so we had sectionals...

i din do sectionals.. i was coughing like mad..

and was having a talk with tonglong and boonhwee...

yups..

[ thanks for the many advices.. ]

after band..

mag jocelyn farhan grace chonghui weixang ying jin boonhwee engkwang and i..

we went to interchange and had macs...

haha thanks for the toy!!! *weee*

[ so sorry farhan that i screwed things up for u... =( ]

den joce mag grace boonhwee and me went back to sch

to take a look at the Orientation Nite...

lolz...

they had so much fun...!!

oh well.. mag bought food back for her class pple...

5 of us plus franz...

had fun time at the field playing in the rain...

franz and boonhwee gone mad...

we..gals... were juz drenched..

running on the track... screaming...

venting everything tat is hidden inside us...

hope everything is let out...

well........... hope..............


+ ran to the middle +
and i screamed aloud
venting everything
that is inside
= me =

thanks for being there for me everyone.. thanks for the advices and feedback....

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a long and tiring day...

[ so many events...
[[ i made so many blunders...
[ simple tasks...
[[[ yet i failed... ]]

this really proves wad i am to be like...


i am trying my very best...
but everything seems to backfire...

i dun have that ability... lacking that capability...
lacking the basic factors i need...

+ becoz of where i am standing +
i really fear the moment of losing you
giving up...

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2nd post of the day....

*sigh*

i seriously have no idea wad to say...

i'm cramping everything inside tat i find it so so hard to let out...

pple around me are juz as vexed....

dun wan be a burden....

past few days have been a torture...

finding it so hard to hang on to survive...

my energy level is going down...down...

praying for strength and perseverance...

praying for miracles.....


[[ so near yet so far...
[ juz steps away...
[[ yet it feels like we are oceans apart...
[[[ it is killing me inside...
[[ like thorns piercing thru this fragile heart.... ]]]]]]

+ only YOU make the decision +
for me to live
+ or leaving me to die +


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2nd day of sch..

my my.. i am actually studying for topical test later.....

wanted to juz fail it and go remedials...lolz..

but.... tat will set a bad record for the year...

so.. ILU chionged...

hahaha..

anyway.. had band pract in the afternoon...

was busy settling the hawaii stuff and handling with the DSA ple coming in...

gosh... blunders and more blunders......

really hopeless...

*sigh*


when can i get things right...!!! really disappointed in myself...!!

*slap*

time to wake up amanda!! get things on the right track..and move...!!

ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!



to everyone out there... hang in there.. esp to those whu are taking their tests the next few days... jiayou.. u guys can do it de... hang in there... lord will bring u thru.....

my friends : thanks for being there for me.. u guys rock!!!


everything seems so wrong...
trying to run..
but the actual fact..
i can nv hide...

mixed feelings everyday...
i dun even noe whu i am anymore..
when can i remove the mask...

or is this the real me...
the me that pple see...

i juz hate myself.........


[ memories of the past flashes thru my mind...
[ wishing it was the same as before...
[ i slap myself back to reality..
[ and realise..
[ it is long gone....]]]


+ YOU + take care.....

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well.. first day of sch...

finally met ILU again.. after 2 mths..haha..

we had so much to talk about tat ms lee got quite angry...

*oops*

anyway.. there's no tutorials for the week.. only lectures..

but joce and i skipped physics..

wad a start for the yr..

*sigh*

this got to stop amanda... !!!

*lolz*

oh well... went out with ilu minus joce...

lolz.. shopped a bit.. came across a wallet i like.. but kinda ex..

and i also haven decided if that's the one i truly like..

let me see more wallets!!

*lolz*

went to white sands coz jac dear had to get some stuff for her sis...

and we made ching cut her hair at jean yip.. hoped she likes it..

*weeee*

took train home with shan and jac....

*tired*

been thinking so much...

i shouldnt be at all...

this has to stop...

*gosh*

it is killing me....

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spent my long weekend before the school term starts at the chalet with my beloved family...

really enjoyed myself..

i had a hair cut.. was unplanned.. aunt wanted a hair cut..so i followed.. we had our cut at jean yip..
weee...lolz.... so happy...

my dry ends are chopped off.. but it will be back soon...lolz....

anyway.. sch starts tml.. boohoohoo... these 2 mths past in a flash... rather busy and tired out...

hope i can cope this yr......sigh....

ilu : seeing u guys in few hours time.. so happy with the bunch of u...hahaa..
mag : u back?? miss u..muacks...
daph : MIA la... sms oso nv reply.. blehz..
grace : thanks for being there and chatting with me thru the nite... =)

menghiang : take care gal.. i'm sorry for not visiting u... =(
zijun : sch starts?? jiayou...

lilo : new year lo... haha... v glad to have u as my "owner"...hurhurhur..love u lots..

kenny : happy new year !! haha..take care when u are away at aust... counting the days to ur arrival... =)

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