
amanda
8 jan 1988
taonan.cchb.tpjc.sim-rmit
title: sick and tired of everything.
hate the feeling of being nagged at. u shud noe this so damn well. yet u chose to continue. wad's it tat i've done tat made u so pissed. did i irritate u? did i piss u off? or are u juz finding someone to blardy vent anger on? so u picked me. thanks so much. u made me feel so important in ur life tat u remembered my existence. everyone has a limit. SO DO I! [ if u're not happy. let me go. i'm glad to run free. dun hold me back and torture me! all these while u've done NOTHING for me.. and i repeat.. NOTHING!! dun expect me to show that basic respect u want.. i wont.. ] sorry pple. i juz need to let it out. i am BLARDY PISSED OFF!! [ coughing to death... ] oh u noe wad. like anyone cares. pissed. screwed. damn. |
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title: - kenny's chalet - SAT, 25th March '06
woke up rather early this morning. guess i couldnt sleep. heh heh. took 16 and and met xiufeng along the way. on our way to orchard to meet weijie. lol. it was such a funny experience. the problems of sms-ing. at bout 12 plus. i msged lilo and we planned nicely where to meet and wad bus to take. so i msged her... " lilo, i taking the 245 bus okie?? " she replied.. " okie see u.." and when i walked to the bus stop at my place, i told her i'm on the bus heading for her place.. she got a shock!! she thought tat i would be taking the bus service 245... but i meant the bus timing..!! haha.. we sure were confused man.. lolz. reached orchard. headed for partyworld. PACKED! so.. we went K-box. haha. sure ahd a fun time singing to my hearts content. i din bother if i was out of tune. juz sang and sang... simply enjoyed my time with my dearest pals... =) oh well. after tat, we took a cab down to downtown east. KENNY"S CHALET! lolz.. reached there. tired man. soon the crowd started streaming in. haha. saw jiehong shirley teewee matt kinda helen janet tat night. CCHB ALUMNI!! lolz.. was darn great seeing them again... =) oh well.. was quite stone. after tat we played some card games. my goodness!! so exciting man. loser gets to kiss the bdae boy.. [ KENNY GOH!! TAN TIO SIA!! ] lolz. oh well.. den it was cake cutting.. wow.. he sure had lots of cake everywhere..lolz.. poor him.. but it was fun.. soon... we were all stoning..den it was mahjong time..lolz... cant play man.. totally suck at it..thank god i had my darling lilo next to me..lolz... we practically tried to stay up the entire night. was tiring. but fun. =) we left the place at 8plus near 9 h next morning... reached home. took a hot bathe. and zzzzz. woke up only at 430..lolz.. receiving 6 msgs. my goodness.. so sorry pals.. so planned with lilo again...and we went back down to chalet..and had bbq... left v little pple..so we called jiehong down too..lolz... had fun sia. really miss those old days where we juz hang around and crap. really miss the days when we are so darn free. now everyone is busy with work. school. army. sigh.. miss ya guys man. oh well.. today left sch and went to meet kenny xiufeng and jiehong... went to eat then walked around before i left for home. some stuff to settle too... had so much fun with them. =) kenny : u're leaving Spore in a few hours time for another 2 mths in Aust. Gosh. missing u already. i believe everyone else ard u is missing u too... oh well.. 2 mths will fly by very fast de.. dun worry.. once u're back again.. we can hang out and crap... =) take care of urself kies. dun fall sick.. miss ya bro.. =) lilo : hey dear gal. i had so much fun with u the past 3 days. enjoyed my head massage rite? haha. love u loads man. do take care too kies. dun eat so heaty stuff. den u wont keep coughing le. yA? hugs.. love ya... jiehong : wuahaha.. after so long.. we get to hang out again sia. lolz.. take care of urself kies. see u this fri. =) ilu : gals.. jiayou kies.. love ya all.. =) to my friends out there : love ya all do take care.. =) that special u : guess u'll nv noe the feeling inside... |
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title: HAPPY BIRTHDAY KENNY!!!!!!!!!!! alright this msg goes out to him.
lolz. known u for yrs.. haahaa.. super good at suan-ing me only!! lolz. u good! anyway. today u turn 21. once u come back spore for good. time to walk the path. stuy or work. u decide wad's best. jiayou okie.!! all the best in everything u do!! god bless u too!! hugs!! oh well.. gonna go his chalet later. lolz. haven really planned where to go b4 tat. so yup. slacking now. haha. miss so many pple out there. [ i am so touched by her blog too!! hahaa.... i simply cant live without her. she's like my everything. my medicine to the pain inside me. i love to the core. simply cant do without her. i really cant imagine wad will happen to me if something happens to our friendship. in order for tat not to happen. i will definitely treasure wad i have now. having her by my side is the best gift lord can ever give me. she's like my everything. ] i love you darling sweetie!!! <3> |
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title: - friends come and go -
This valuable friendship started yrs back and lasted till this day. But, it all comes to an end. Is there no way we can resolve it? Or, are we just going to let it die and wither? Friends who understand you. cares for you. loves you. are hard to find. SO. treasure them like a precious gift sent from above. Dun let them out of sight and side. Once lost, it's hard to find back such valuable treasure. [ i dont noe if u're reading this. but if u do. do look back and think bout how u acted and behaved. think twice ] |
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title: - back to blog -
oh well. it's been quite a long while since i last blogged. lolz. okie. here goes. had SPE this morning. it's the heats for sports day. events were 12 x 100m and 4 x 100m. i took part in both. lolz. well. i have to say well done to the gals in my class. at least we were better than last yr. we arent last anymore!! haha. [ WELL DONE BABES! ] alrite. the guys did v well.!! [ GOOD JOB!! ] haha. after SPE. had maths test. it was humid inside. i was sweating like mad. gosh. couldnt concentrate. had headache. oh well. after tat. shannie chingie lynnie farhan and i went TM to eat. haha. played cards. feeling abit uneasy and moody at a period of time. after tat, i was fine. =) went back sch. had band pract. dr lee is still sick. [ pls take care ]. so we had sectionals den combine. i was moody. so once band ended. i spoke to no one. juz packed and left. [ sorry daph mag marcus joce tat i left without a word of bye and juz walked off .] took a cab down to cchy. had alumni pract. finally!! there she is. my darling lilo. alrite. fine. this is gonna sound mushy. but i have to say it. the sight of her juz makes the burning flame inside me simmer down. so glad she is there to crap with me and cheer me up. =) [ thanks darling. u're the best to me le! thanks for buying me bubble tea. hugs. i love u always.. ] after band. went off to north point to have supper. with helen zijun lilo weijie kenny and ken. wee.. had so much fun. KENNY GOH WEE HIANG is finally back in spore, juz to celebrate his 21st bdae.. den back to Aust for last 2 mths.. den he's back for good. lolz. [ thanks ar!! for all ur suan-ing!! ] =) had sooo much fun. took a train back. alighted at toa payoh..den took 31. lol. tired. here i am. blogging.. |
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title: - band camp -
oh well. dr lee is very sick and din turn up for thurs and fri's band pract. [ do take care ] fri was the day for us to stay over. had band pract in the morning till bout 5. after lunch was supposedly sectionals, but daph mag kianhong kaixiang and i went to plan for night walk. finished planning. it was time to walk the route ONCE. and it was creepy. first station was the girl's toilet. my goodness. it scared the nerves out of the 5 of us. trust me. we SCREAMED like mad. lolz. oh well. was fun though. lol. had combine from 345 to 5. den i left for cchy. took a cab and picked lilo up at sengkang. den headed for khatib. met zijun and had dinner. den went for band pract. lol. had so much fun with lilo around. [ missing u badly my dear ] hmm.. after band pract, went for supper at morth point. den i took 969 with lilo. heehee.. met rachel at tampines interchange. den 3 of us cabbed to my sch first den headed for lilo's home. [ have a safe journey ] oh well. things din turn out well when i was away. but, wad's over is over. so let's all not brood over it. =) everything ended at bout 12 plus. grace rach daph mag joce and i bathed. while the guys waited for us outside the toilet. [ thanks so much ]. den we had cake cutting ceremony for march babies. [ they are mr lim, kianhong, desmond, grace and yanleng ] =) went out to macs to grab a bite. was a long walk. thought about a lot of stuff. shall not elaborate. hmm.. den headed back for sch.. it was near 3 plus.. den played superbastard. lolz. super funny. the sch is manifested with MOSQUITOES!! gosh... poor those whu got bitten all over. oh well. luckily i only had like 3 bites. guess my blood isnt tat sweet. =) early in the morning at bout 6. many pple left for home. guess all of us are dead tired. [hope u guys had fun. rest well for sch!! ] daph rach mag and i fell asleep on the table outside LT1. i kept waking up becoz of the sch attendant. haha. den luckily i woke up before tonglong came. [ heng ar ] haha. he had his fun of looking at pple sleeping in the most unglam positions. haha. [ v fun hor. =) ] oh well.. alumni had their band pract. so i guess we shud leave for home. so rach grace mag daph kianhong and i left for home. [ home sweet home ] mag and i shared a cab. once i reached home. BATHE!! LUNCH!! BED!! haha.. [ sounds like a pig!! oinks ] oh well.. woke up only at 5. wad a short nap rite? haha. coz i'm going out to have dinner. dad's bdae celebration. lol. dajie and jiefu are coming too!! [ smiles!! miss them.. plus little nephew!! ] hmm.. dead tired... and thinking.. real hard... |
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title: - lousy day at home -
supposedly gonna go out with mum. but. dad had to show temper. so wad the hell. they both juz had an attitude. like.. wad the!! so i stayed home. did some maths. more pissed. practically sucked at it. i'm so pissed with myself. WHY!! why cant i get things rite?! argh. simply no mood and no concentration!! wad a day. anyway. here i am. luckily. there's yahoo bridge. shannie lynnie and farnnie and i. playing happily. so yeah. i'm smiling. =) |
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title: - special messages -
05S21 : hey pple. time passes so fast. one yr is gone. we definitely had fun yeah. well let's work hard together. jiayou!! =) love the bunch of ya all. chingie : hey gal. u're always the bubbly one ard to keep things going. u rock man. jiayou kies. let's work hard this yr. shannie : hey gal. u're always the one asking us where to go after sch. we would have lunch together at times. u rock too. let's work hard together. lynnie : hey gal. u're always there to cheer me on. u're quite blur at times though. lol. u rock too. jiayou yeah. let's work hard together. chowie : hey gal. no matter wad happens. cheer up k. things happen for a reason. so yup. jiayou. mag : hey gal. u fell sick yeah. issit me hu passed u germs? lolz. take care and dun think so much. daph : ah lun ar ah lun. lol. u are always not ard when we go makan. booboo man. haha. jiayou kies. grace : all the best for 14.. keep calm..and jiayou! boonhwee : da kor!! mama is making soup everyday!! good luck on 14 too..!! =) sam mich hwaee yeekiat eugene alan : wee..how ya guys doing? good? all the best. miss ya all. rachel : wee... miss u already... take care kies.. jiayou too. dun give up... lilo : hey hey dearie dearie.. wad ya up to for the past 2 weeks...? miss ya so much. hugs.. kenny : wow!! 4 more days to ur return!! haha.. cant wait. menghiang : wee.. how ya doin gal?? good yeah? i bet.. jiayou.. 56 more days!! yipee..! hugs. jun : how's sch? jiayou kies... helen : dun be too sad... hope u can perform with us for Appassionate II.. =) ying : over is over...yeah? keep moving.. =) hugs.. - that special you : it's been a long time. i miss u.. - |
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title: - treasure before it is gone -
she always took things for granted. she nv learnt to treasure. 5 months back. they become an item. she took him for granted. she loves him. but not as much as he does. there were bad and good times. quarrels. disagreements. fights. sunrise. beaches. dinner dates. but it is now all long gone. and she tears for it to return. she hates herself. very much. - ying meimei. after all that has happened. i believe u've learnt ur lesson. rite? wad's gone. is gone. no point brooding over it when u were at fault. take this as a learning step. dun repeat it ever again. hugs. - |
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title: - tired and late -
well, wasnt feeling too well in the morning. so reached sch late. skipped SPE. oops. shannie and lynnie din come. so left me and chingie. we skipped maths lect. tired. oh well. soon it was 230. band starts. so glad most J1s came. =) den dinner time. daph grace mag and i rushed thru our dinner. haha. tired and ulcers everywhere. gosh. - dun seem to be affected by ur words. i wonder why. someday i will realise. - i hope... |
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title: - school -
oh well. i skipped PE. juz din feel like it. super down and out during chem. so yeah. doodled everywhere. and ignored everyone. [sorry pple. juz down] den after school, had appeal cases. so helped out at bandroom. ended up playing bridge. with marcus joce rachel. soon farhan came along. mag is anxious bout appeal. running here and there. lol. after tat. went parkway for dinner. grabbed a bit of food from mag. lol. tired. so we went home. rach and mag sent me home. touched. thanks gals. hugs. oh well. here i am blogging and chatting. [ thanks alan for the many word of advises. =)] tired. mag: heh heh. thanks for being there all the time. rachel: thanks for buying lunch gal. hugs. grace: thanks for helping out too. =) shannie: booboo... miss cabbing with u. chingie: dun take it too heart okie. everything will be fine. lynnie: boo.. haha... sweet dreams. =) chowie: yo.. haha... take care of ur cough..hor?? lilo: miss ya my dear dear dear most darling. kenny: faster la. count down to ur return..so slow!! menghiang and jun: wee.. study hard when the term starts yeah.. |
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title: - WOLF CREEK -
SAT, 4th March '06 early morning. met zijun. @ paya lebar mrt. headed to ACJC. gonna meet dr lee for tickets. den i waited and waited. gosh. i mixed up the venue. he said ACSI. pengz. so hurried down to ACSI. meet mohli there. took the tickets for dr lee. then left for suntec. [ thanks jun for acc-ing me ] met shannie and chingie at bout 1230. den went career fair. was alrite. still duno wad course to taka. 3 of us cabbed to cine orchard. met andrew. den had lunch. went to play a bit of arcade. den went to watch movie. WOLF CREEK. rather boring at first. nothing scary or frightening. movie critics ranked 4. my god. i think it deserves juz a 2. for some gruesome images. yup. den shopped for a while at take. andrew left first. 3 of us went shopping and trying shoes. soon was bout 620. walked to somerset mrt. chingie and shannie left. hugs hugs gals. den i went for family dinner. aunt's bdae. wee. din eat much. that's my evening. lol. came home. slacked. watched a bit of tv. dozed off. till my hp rang. ying called. sigh. [ when it's urs, u din treasure. now tat it's leaving ur side and sight u tear as u regret. if he decides to look back. treasure. alrite? hugs gal ] |
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title: staying awake on this cold cold night.
the wind howls. the leaves rustle. the sound of nature. so beautiful. but, i chose to shut my ears. and listen to ur voice inside me. calling my name. gently. slowly, my eyes shut. there. u appear. ur hand stretches out i reach for it. suddenly, all disappears. back i am. to a place i hate. reality. where everything. simply. hurts |
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title: - super slack -
had SPE. supposed to run. 5 rounds with timing. but i couldnt. ran one round. started to cough. pant. terrible. headache. nearly passed out. in the toilet. help. thank goodness. i was fine. den had maths lecture. no notes. so slacked. was msg-ing. and playing with toy. guirong's duck. lol. banned from playing with it. she accuses me of duck abuse. =( chinese. finally dropped it. i miss teacher. she's nice. gosh. lol. went out of sch. had lunch at CS. japanese food. yum. soon farhan came. moved to long john. played cards. den went off. back to sch. GP TEST! pengz. gone case. band. tired and unwell. din pract. cant. gosh. band end. went uncle louis. dinner. yum. took 12 home. with grace and mag. reached parkway. shop shop with mag. den franz and jackson came. they sent me home. to my doorstep. so touched. thanks guys. =) - tc - mag franz jackson : thanks for sending me all the way up to my doorstep and run off the moment my mum appear. she tot she scared u guys. ilu : take care gals. the "bug" is going round making everyone sick. hugs. grace : take care gal. all the best to u on 14 march. jiayou. rachel : i miss u badly. do take care. meet up for makan kies. hugs. tonglong : heh heh.. thanks for ur encouragement!! =) lilo : boo. my chocolate fountain lehz?! kenny : coming back le hor. faster la! menghiang and jun : jiayou in sch!! hugs friends... take care... |
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title: - sick and moody -
well. it's been a long while. since i last visited here. alrite. been sick the past few days. coughed. feverish. flu. argh. i'm seriously sick. haven been at band. sorry peeps. tc and miss ya guys. [ esp mag rach grace joce... ] well. had physics test today. was alrite. managed to throw the formulas. heh heh. felt a bit feverish. cold. ching said i was sick. brrr... oh well. nth much to blog. juz in a very moody state. it's juz not my week. finally gonna drop chinese. working hard on my other subj. all the best too ilu. jiayou kies. hugs |
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