
amanda
8 jan 1988
taonan.cchb.tpjc.sim-rmit
title: a little girl
wandering around in search of a warm loving place called home. she thought she found it. but she was wrong. realising that she fears of it. she hides. she runs. but to no avail. returning to this place fearful. frustrated. when will this tension disappear. so this little girl. can smile. again [ u people have no idea wad it is like to come home and face u guys. u vent ur anger and frustrations. i'm stressed out. i hate this place. i hate me. i hate everything. ] [ take me to ur kingdom. where i can truly call home ] |
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title: - alrite - last nite.
really affected. badly. many thoughts ran thru my mind. i was so frustrated. but i had to keep tat smile going and going and going... i duno wad else i can do. locked myself in the room. did my SUDOKU to numb my mind. to keep my fears. to hide my tears. but i failed. i fell asleep and woke up with bulgy eyes. this morning. i tried to keep my smiles again. guess i failed. after maths.. was msg-ing and scenes of wad happened ran thru my mind. i teared. i felt so screwed up. i felt so alone in this. why do i have to bear all this? i hate this. i simply hate this. - fark - but thank god for sending my angels.. (lynnie and shannie) - emofied day- after chem, went to orchard to catch X-men. ching met us there coz she skipped lessons. - tsk tsk tsk - 10 of us watched X-men. [ daryl mark jinhui longhui jeffrey andrew ching joce shannie and me ] there. movie was great. but gotta say X-men I and II were better. =) oh well. got my ears pierced. FINALLY.. lol. -shannie chingie lynnie - thanks my dears for keeping my smiles up today. without u guys i duno how today will be like after sch.. love ya all loads... -lilo- i seriously miss u to the core. i haven been sms-ing u lately. so sorry. i miss u badly. i miss the times spent at cchyband. i miss dinners. i miss train rides home. i miss crapping with you. i miss poking fun of u.. I SIMPLY MISS YOU!! hugs.. -kenny- you ar you!! coming back only on 6th june!! why?! supposed to be tml rite!! lol. take care. miss ya too bro.. hugs.. -menghiang- dear gal. haven been sms-ing u much too. i noe u are going thru alot now. take care kies. dun stress coz it will only make matters worse. jiayou and u can do it!! god bless you. and rest well kies.. loves..hugs.. -zijun- are u still around?? or.. elope with - - - - le? lol. take care and study hard!! loves.. -to all my friends- do take care and god bless. -euu- i hope my feelings arent rite. coz i dun wan fall and hurt myself. again. |
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title: boo hoo hoo.
here comes the heavy downpour. bummer. it simply dampens the mood on a sunday morning. -yawns- oh well. hope it stops by 3. so i can go town with sisters and bro-in-law to catch... DA VINCI CODE.. hmm.. did some online browsing at dresses.. GOSH! i simply love that dress above!! lol. =) |
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title: alrite. a day at home.
simply nothing but.. bored. supposedly going out to catch X-men III with shannie chingie lynnie and farnnie.. but lynnie cant make it... so we cancelled our plans.. - sigh - oh well.. went parkway with mum during lunch time. singapore sales!! but.. parkway was rather quiet.. hmm.. tat's gd in a way.. dun haf to rush with the crowd.. yipee.. bought a skirt..so happy. wanted get the pants.. but.. decided to check another outlet for better quality.. =) - missing euu - badly |
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title: whoopie!! maths and gp ct is over.
great. yeah. hols are here!! singapore sale is here too!! lol. but u noe.. this hols.. really sucky.. totally no rest.. 1st week : back to sch practically everyday!! gosh.. wad to do.. 2nd yr in JC life = NO LIFE heh heh. alrite. today. after maths. went to TM. with ching and shan had pizza for dinner. gosh. we ordered too much. ended up being bloated. walked around to digest our tummy. lol. TM and CS were packed. gosh. lol. had fun with my gals. =) [ jiayou for chem and physics kies? loves ] [been thinking..and thinking..and thinking..] [ when there is love.. there is pain??? ] |
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title: - college day -
alrite. today is tpjc's 19th college day. gotta be in sch super early to set up instru and do sound check. met mrs neo to get breakfast for teachers and dr lee. i was so damn stoned. soon. it's over. finally. fell asleep in bandroom while waiting for the entire event to be over. den lynnie farnnie and i headed for tampines library to study first. soon after, shannie and chingie came. and sadly, lynnie and farnnie left. did some maths. FRUSTRATIONS. couldnt get stuff rite. damn. common test is like next fri. and i still have my mugger mode turned off. dead. so damn dead. [ addicted to youtube =) ] [ simply euu. no longer have the courage and faith. fear is wad best describes me now. ] [ can you comfort my fears? ] |
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title: alrite.
let's blog bout yday. was at home the whole afternoon. did nothing but slack around the house and watched tv. [ gosh.where's the momentum to mug?? ] got my ass off the couch and got ready for church. after that had family dinner to celebrate dajie's birthday as well as mother's day. [ HAPPY BIRTHDAY DAJIE!! ] had thai food at lemongrass restaurant at siglap. delicious. after tat was coffee and chit chat at starbucks. tired. happy. [ thought of euu ] shannie chingie lynnie : dear gals. miss ya all soo much over this long weekend. gosh. cant wait to see u guys tml. hugs. loves. lilo : darling. so sorry couldnt meet u on thurs. i miss u soooo much u noe. gosh. we really need catch up. love ya. kenny : counting down to ur return aye? lol. take care bro. miss ya. menghiang : having fun with wushu? miss ya. jun : how's sch man? accepted into tp band? all my other friends out there... love ya all... miss ya.. take care... [ grey patches ahead. covering the wonderful memories. can YOU paint them...again?? ] |
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title: HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY !!
this very day. dedicated to her. the one and only. MY HONOURABLE MOTHER. praise her with a flower thank heaven for our mother for her gift of love sent from up above shower her with flowers from the highest tower shower her with flowers mother and a friend from my grateful hands accept my humble flower |
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title: HAPPY BIRTHDAY DARYL!!!
alrite. went back to sch in the morning for band pract. some stuff happened. i suck.totally. mood went down. - sigh - oh well. hurried off for home.changed and met up with the rest to celebrate daryl's bdae at east coast beach. =) [ jinhui andrew jeffrey berwyn mark paul ellien wanxuan priycia ching and of coz daryl ] did some cycling round east coast. it was damn packed. played by the sea. dumped our bdae boy into the sea. and then the time has come. the rain has spoiled the mood. - sigh - went to jinhui's house for more fun at his pool. - smiles - we cleaned up. went parkway for dinner. had some pool session. leaving the gang with only jinhui mark ching me daryl and paul. lol. saw some tpjcians. and also... yenpei eunice matt and choonkiat.. gosh..been soooo damn blardy long since i last saw them la. miss them sooo much... hugs.. guess we were all dead tired.. went home.. =) [ am i too sensitive? affected.badly.why.sigh. ] |
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title: back to blogging..
past few days haven really come online.. physics test = dead chem spa = alrite la. haha. ms lee din come today. so we pushed our GP forward. and we ended sch at 210 rather than the usual 330. yippee.. helped ching at library. shelving is torturing. poor ching dear. [ sorry if i caused u some trouble with mary ] hmmm.. den off we went to the track to watch the soccer match. - smiles - so so happy. mag mel clarie jieying pauline and i practically went mad.. lol.. so happy... - INJURED - arh!! pain pain!! oh well.. den the game ended. mag and i went parkway to eat. went crazy. couldnt stop grinning.. - grins - i'm still grinning as i blog. happy day. smiles. [ read guirong's blog. and reminded me of tuesday's civics lesson. ] - what is love? - |
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title: - sea sports -
alrite. today was sea sports heats. our class guys did well for their boys double. *claps* to andrew and huijie for coming in first.. to berwyn and daryl for coming in 2nd.. to jeffrey and jinhui for their effort..at least they wont last. WELL DONE DUDES!! =) coming to mixed doubles. ellien and huijie came in first.. WELL DONE AGAIN!! =) hmm.. den come dragon boating. i had fun at first. i am NOT thirsty. why shannie keep feeding me water?? =( lol. den some stuff during dragon boat tat made us quite unhappy. wadeva. selfish ass. hmm.. shannie chingie lynnie farnnie and i went macs. had dinner. home. =) |
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title: - dread -
alrite. juz hung up with my darlings. [shannie chingie lynnie] we had a conference call. haha. so funny. it was soo hard to actually decipher whu is whu. soon.. our replies were all like dead... so.. goodnite dears. sweetest dreams. sending my angels to watch over my lovely jiemeis. [they're juz sooo sweet. huggies] oh well. my excel got some prob. one click and all gone. shit. so dead. hope ms leow dun kill me. and oops. [xing.sorry.] |
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title: here i am blogging away.
coz.. 1st-ly.. BORED. 2nd-ly.. CANT SLEEP. 3rd-ly.. JUZ SIANZ. oh well. juz not feeling too well. last nite the acute pain was still there. and this morning i vomitted. din tell mummy. scared she worry. or probably juz scold the shit out of me for not taking care. and having to see doc to spend $$ so yupz. suffering silently. [ as usual ] hmm. luckily it's the weekend. so i can rest. =) many thoughts ran thru my mind. gosh. thinking too much i guess. raindrops. from the eyes. |
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title: - acute pain -
alrite. today was TPJC's sports day. haha. i met shannie along the way. and my cab picked her up. i tot we were suppose to meet mrs koh at 7am.. but the gals tot it was 730. oops shannie. made u come so early. really sorry... =( oh well. we were time-keepers for sports day. so exciting and nervous. the 8 of us sat at the time keeping stand. so funny. u can actually see how nervous we were. whenever the gun sound is heard, all of us would JERK.. lol. so damn funny. oh yes. well done to berwyn weison daryl and jeffrey. congrats on winning the award!! =) hmm.. after tat a grp of ur went century square for lunch den went marina square for movies. some left for home sadly. hmmm.. so leaving.. guirong ching me jeffrey andrew longhui.. mark and paul came later. and yesh.. yuanwei (guirong's bf) too.. lol.. we watched MI 3.. haha.. it's such a cool movie. so many action. quite touching too.. after all that action.. i felt an acute pain in my tummy. gosh it really hurt. i had to bear with it throughout the last 15 mins of the movie. when the movie ended.. it hurt real bad. i couldnt take it. i grabbed ching's hand tightly. and cried.. super pain.. [ thanks guys for being concern.. ] [ thanks jeffrey for rushing to buy the panadol ] [ thanks ching for ur hand and sorry to worry u ] [ thanks guirong for wanting to hold meout of the toilet ] [ THANKS GUYS..simply love u guys.. =) ] hmm.. after tat went to orchard to meet dajie and erjie.. the pain was still there. but i din tell them. din wan them to worry. so ya. we went scotts for dinner. had so much fun. was tired though. so a bit dead. love ya darlings.. - the pain is still here - |
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title: - sianded -
alrite. sch. again no more practicals. so tutorials. how nice. - argh - wad to do. A LEVELS MA..lol.. alrite. after sch, had this GP test. gosh. totally crapped my way. [ sorry ching dear for stuff. and shan too if i pissed u too ] hmm. after tat went to watch the soccer match - delighted - - grins - cabbed home with shannie!! after sooo long... finally we cabbed together...AGAIN... =) |
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title: - lalala -
alrite. here goes. had sch. as usual. like duh. lol. being lame. had PE. did 2 out of the 5 items. sit-ups and standing board jump. gosh. i really jumped man. but juz got a 160. lousy rite. but thanks to my dear gals in class. they cheered me on. YIPEE! love them. =) oh well. nth much but juz more tutorials. after sch went T-mart for lunch with most of the class ppl. [ berwyn shiyong jeffrey longhui jinhui andrew guirong ellien ching joce shan wanxuan priycia and huishan.. ] haha... first time i see a big grp going out like that.. hahaha.. went back sch for physics. =) after tat went to track. called mag. guess whu i saw!! lol!! - grins - ended my sch hour sooo darn perfectly.. - grins - |
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title: alright.
i got hell of a tough time apologizing to stupid zhixing. oops. i mean "nice" zhixing.. [ vomits ] i am sorry la!! haha. fine. i will only treat u. - groans - alright. home the whole day. got woken up from my beauty sleep at 9am. coz my granduncle and grandaunt came over. - groans - so sis and i decided to go for a shopping spree at parkway. since my parents said there was a crazy sale... when we reached there... it was like... errr.. sale?? more like the remains of a sale. haha. it was rather quiet. so we went mango. saw a top i like. but din try. went topshop. saw another top i liked. din try either. went dorothy perks. saw a top i eyed for some time. din buy. screwed. so many things i wan. but... BROKE.. how i wished i had the progress package.. gimme money.. money.. money!!! $$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$ |
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