i was juz reading something somewhere.

and suddenly it first came to my mind.

can i still trust you? all that i said. did u leak it out??

cross my fingers and pray.

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band and shopping.

alrite. yday was band pract. hurhur. i was late. so sorry.
cabbed down to tamp cc to get breakfast for hwaee and boonhwee.
den i walked damn quickly to school to open to band room.

omg. i've not walked that fast for super long la. lol.
okie. but luckily like only 4 pple were there. hee.

hengz. alrite. then more pple came in. yeah.
good pract.
during pract had a couple of smses.

thanks lynnie for accompanying me and encouraging me. thank u so much.. love u.
thanks to balls for smsing me too. i love my sis so much. she's here when i need her.
told her everyhing and i controlled no more.

thanks hwaee. michelle. lynn. tonglong and boonhwee for acc-ing me. thanks so much. =)

den i met up with ching and shan. den we went lunch and shopping.
at least my mood went up a bit. love them


my smiles and laughters. i need them. to hide my true feelings. to keep myself happy. to erase all that has happened away.

but i guess i failed.


i hate you. still.

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this song juz explains everything. every night.

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i hate you. i really do. will u juz stop harping on my back!

will u juz fark off. i hate you. i really do.

i dun need ur support sicne u've not done tt for the past few years. i dun need ur money.
i hate you.

i tear becoz i'm angry! becoz i hate you!


farked up life. juz farked.


will u juz take me away. take me into ur arms. i hate to be here.

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fark off.

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i wanna cry. but i hold back. becoz each tear drop woould only mean i am sorry to you.

but u noe wad arsehole. no i am not sorry.

becoz i did no wrong. so why shud i be sorry.

anyway all these years u did nth tat qualifies the title u hold now.

i hate u.
thanks to u tt i am like tt. u muz ba glad.

defiance is all tt is in me. fark off.

BIGG SORRRY to many pple.

first off. is mohli. i am very sorry for not being able to finish the task asap. i am very sorry.

second off would be zq. sorry if i kept flaring up at u. u shud noe. i am fed up.

third off is all my friends. sorry if i MIA.

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FARK OFF

i farking hate you. u farking hell made me be like this. u muz be farking glad. u farker.

the more u say harsh things the more i farking hell will run away.

cant u be a little farking hell more understanding.

u farker.

i farking hate you.

fark off.

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the rain has yet to stop.

growls.

[ pple. pls do take care of ur health kies. dun be like me. ]

down with flu and sore throat. been losing my voice.

sigh. slept and slept. due to drowsy medication. growl.

haha. okie.

hmm. yday was band pract. was still alrite. until i stayed in air con room. wah seh. cannot tahan. haha. din play much coz it hurt damn badly.

din go for lunch with thm coz wanted go sis place. yup. lol.
i miss chuka. =)

oh well. got my bday pressie from my sis. thanks love.
haha. was quite a shocking gift. lol.
but yeah. i love it. muackies.

den. my condition took a turn for the worse.
couldnt even speak properly. breathless. lol

den i came home and see the doc. lol.

and yeah. more rest. more water. more medication.

boo hoo hoo.
i miss lilo sweetie.
i miss chingie honey.
i miss shannie dearie.
i miss lynnie baby.


i miss u darling.

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rain rain rain.
will u juz go away.
and not spoil amanda's plans?

=(




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alrite..updates.

8th jan.

my bdae. met up with kenny janet xiufeng weijie and helen to celebrate my bdae.
haha we met at marche. =)

xiufeng and keng gave me my xmas pressie and bdae one too. a blanket and a necklace.
helen gave me a pendant.

thanks babes and dude =) lol

alrite. more eating. more suaning. more chatting.
den we took a walk down to marina sq.

haha. sat at macs and chit chat even more.

simply miss them. =)

home sweet home.

hmm. y does my heart think of u suddenly.

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I AM 19!!!

yippee. happy bdae to me. happy bdae to me. happy bdae to meeeeeeee.


HAPPY BDAE TO ME!!

lol. alrite.

big THANKS to those whu sent their wishes to me. love all of u. lol


6th jan was a nite out at Zouk. haha. lots of hot babes and hunks. lol.
really enjoyed myself.

guirong, mark, jinhui, jeff and andrew gave me an angel necklace. thanks guys. love it.

haha. i really love S21. .

7th jan was a celebration at home with my family. food and cake. i love it. i love them. lol
and of coz not forgetting a lunch meet-up with jun and menghiang. haha love them. super looong nv meet can. lol. love love.

TONIGHT!! i cant wait!! it's a bdae celebration with kenny. janet. helen. weijie and xiufeng! lol.
love love.

I AM SOOOOOOOOOOO HAPPY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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A VISIT TO THE ZOO

yes pple. dun be surprised at why i am at the zoo. no i dun work there.

i went there to celebrate my bdae with my gals and paul. lol

mannie shannie chingie lynnie and paul = F4 plus 1
(ps. if u watch meteor garden, u will understand.)

lol. hmm. yup. i really really had a wonderful time. and i must thank god for the beautiful weather. it was perfect. definitely memories to keep in my heart.

after tat was dinner at marina sq's swensens. there i was given my present. a card from the babes and a cd with powerpoint slides in it.

alrite. i juz watched it like 5 times. and i have to say these gals of mine really understand me in and out. and yes. mission accomplished.

I"M CRYING. haha. i really really love them for all they've done for me. big and small. they juz mean so much. every time and effort to comfort me, to cheer me up. to entertain me. to love me.

they're juz 3 wonderful darlings one can ever ask for. and i thank god for these lovely gifts into my life.

alrite not forgetting paul. yes yes. dun feel outcasted kies. u are like our jie mei~ lol. thank u sooo much for accompanying us to the zoo. hanging ard and making this very day so enjoyable for me and everyone else too. haha. thank u so much once again.

okie. i really am very touched. i'm lost for words. i'm off to watch the video for the 6th time.

THANK U CHING. THANK U SHAN. THANK U JOCE. & THANK U PAUL.

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the people whom i dearly love. w/o them = no amanda. i love them. i cherish them. till death do us part. they're the world to me.  

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alrite. i've decided to come back to blogging.

first off. HAPPY NEW YEAR PEEPS.

the start of the new year aint fantastic. shall not elaborate. juz thanks to some freako here. wadeva.

oh well. blogging is meaningless now. wad i do when i'm awake. wad i eat. blahh blahh blahh..

gosh. emo-fied is the word. pissed off is the phrase. I HATE IT is the sentence.

there.

happy new year.

the next thing i'm looking forward to is my bdae celebration.

tml, 5th jan i'm gonna celebrate it with my sweetie babes. ching shan and joce. and paul decided to come along to help us with our umbrellas, food and drinks. so nice. lol. nahz. jie mei~~

alrite. 6th jan will be at zouk for some inter-jc pageant thing tat andrew got in. so yeah. gonna meet some of class peeps.

7th jan gonna be home sweet home. sweet? mayb. yeah. wadeva.

8th jan. happy bdae to me. happy bdae to me. gonna be out for dinner with the chung cheng gang.. keng. cna u faster reply me!? are u out of town?? hello?? knock-a-knock??

yup. tat's all.


[i've learnt the technique to ignore and live on. if u cherished all tat we had. u wouldnt be an ass like whu u are now. and tat's why. i hate u]

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here are some pics of the Chaperones for Bandfest '06..more pics on the way.. =) 

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Mr Atarashi, Conductor for Bandfest '0 

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Dr Alan Lourens, Conductor for Bandfest '06 

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Mr Joseph Cheung, Conductor for Bandfest '06 

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