i've read some stuff off friendster.

i cant help but think. i cant help but pray for a miracle.

i cant help it. i tot i had long forgotten this. but, my grins widened and prayed for a miracle.

and just nice. the song played. "Like A Rose"

just coincidental i guess. i guess u're still in here, <3.

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hello. been gone for quite some time.

i'm supposed to be in bed. i'm quite drained. but i just cant get to sleep.

trying to keep my emotions aside and smile as widely as i can. mayb it's just pms-ing. mayb i'm just sensitive.

but i cant stand this anymore.

why do i keep letting this bug me. no matter wad u do or say will gain any forgiveness from me.
and even if i do really forgive u, i cant forget all that nasty comments. nasty words. fucked up attitude. and annoying actions.

this lunar new year, ur attitude seems better. but i guess it's becoz u are superstitious and u dun wan any bad luck to befall on u. sooo, u're trying to be the nice guy around here.

but u know wad. we know ur pattern sooo freaking well. tt after the festive season is over.

ur disgusting old self will return.

they tell me to treasure wad i have before me.

do u? do u treasure wad u have now? or u still take us for granted?

they tell me it's heaven's gift to be a family.

do u like this gift?


sigh. emofied. tears. farked up mood. i hate 2008

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argh.. new year is around the corner and i have yet to settle anything nice and dressy.

fark.

actually set my eyes for this dress i saw online from forever21. but it has yet to be shipped to singapore. and the salesperson aint sure if the blardy americans are ever gonna ship it here.

damn.

gosh. i pray hard. i pray harder that they will ship my pwetti dress over. coz i really love it.

sob.

well. over the week..

tues, went shopping with the girls (shan & ching). and bought a blue top from forever21.
ching will be getting me a tube to match this top. heehee.thanks my love.

swam a couple of times and got burnt. i love it.

haha.

sat, went out with mum. bought 2 cardigans. yikeess.

so irritating rite. i haven got proper clothes to settle for new year and i am buying all these for other days.

damn. where are all the pretty dresses ever gonna come in????!


cant wait for tuesday. coz it's another day with ching and shan. wooohooo.
miss ya both. lovesss

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there's always giving and taking.

sighh.

we always end up giving.

and others. they just take without realising how to give. or not even realise what they give are just simply too little.

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just got home. =)

out in the afternoon with mum to do a lil shopping. and managed to get a white denim skirt from dorothy perkins. tried a couple of dresses from there and warehouse. but din mange to set my mind and buy.

still deciding.

den went off from harbourfront to kallang to meet my darling. headed to old kallang airport market to makan our dinner.

*simply miss that place*

it brought back many memories. lunch break on saturdays after first half of band pract.
desserts after school. chit chat sessions with friends. simply too many. was telling darling that i really missed this place. esp Mountbatten C.C. a place where CCHBAND had practs. had sectionals. had marching. had punishments. and also....

the place where i met u. =)


den off we went to Indoor Stadium for Jay Chou's World Tour Concert. saw hwaee and JJ on the bus. they were heading there too. duh. Jay chou is hwaee's fav. LOL!

saw a glimpse of steffany too. hee hee.

the concert was great. but he din sing my favourite song. sobx. was waiting for it laaa. niao.

haha. chatted a lot with darling. and really missed the good old days.
i miss thailand too. LOL!

came back to my place and she took a cab back to sengkang. love u darling. take care.
we shall go K next week. all our S.H.E songs and my wo bu pei and sha gua....

annnnnd...

OUR DUET!! WU DING. lol. a song that will never be missed on the song selection list.

loveee.


looks like i really cant forget u. tell me pls. tell me what i should do to stop loving you.

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it's been a tough period ever since i duno when.
keeping the smiles and laughters. holding the tears.
i dont know how to react anymore when we meet.

all i can say is. i still love u. and i always will.

i hope my suspicions are wrong. i hope they go away soon.
and i need YOU to tell me the answers to all my questions.

please.


red is the new colour now. and i love it. =)

imissyou.ireallydo.

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rain rain rain. damn man.

weather has been terrible these few days. yikeeees.

commercial law this week. yikeees. [thanks for ur encouragement]

well. damn tired. been having headache every morning and it lasts till noon.
sighh..

havent had lunch. gonna mum mum now. hee heee.

byeeee.

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i promised there will be pics. they are coming soon.

been a lil lazy in collating all the pics. heh heh.

well. a week of sch has passed. goodness. din catch a single shit of macroecons.
and test is on 11th feb. yikeees.

my new group met once only. sooo hopefully we can clique well.
haha. i have a super hero in my grp. feeel sooo protected. heh heh.

well. just heard on the radio. "Like A Rose" by A1.
brings me a lot of memories.
no wait. it just brings me back to u.

yupp. CCHB TALENTIME. tt's wad i missed of u.

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here's a lil update of bdae celebrations. =)

well, yday 7th was celebrated with Xiufeng, Kenny, Janet, Helen and Weijie at Kbox, Cineleisure.
a pity dear keng couldnt make it. sighh.

well. we had kbox buffetn dinner and sang from 6pm to 10pm.
haha. damn fun.

finally got a chance to sing songs with lilo. coz i miss her freaking much.
and of coz with my other darlings. =)

they bought me a cake and played "happy birthday" on the screen.
just tat kenny kor played another version of it. "ZHU" ni shen ri kuai le.

zhu as in PIG is chinese. how sweet of my bro sia. "LOVE" him. LOL!

well. pictures will be uploaded soon. lol.

den today, it was dinner celebration with ching.shan and joce.
ching came to SIM at 1pm to meet shan and i. den we headed to marina for lunch.
shopped a bit.

den played bridge. and settled for dinner at M.O.F.
=)

opened up the gift they made! omg. shocked. but it was great.

they really put in alot of effort.

thank u very much my angels. =)


more pics coming..

[u filled my entire mind. i couldnt stop thinking. i couldnt let go. i dun want to maybe.
it hurts inside. and u never will know. or u did. but chose to walk away. i never felt like this before. it really hurts. my heart. shattered.torn apart. the wound will never heal.]

i farking miss u. yes u!

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happy birthday to meeee.. more updates when i'm free-er.

love those who wished me.

love those who celebrated and are going to celebrate with me.

=)

imissedu.i'mawaitingforyoursms.but.justmywishfulpart.istillmissu.ialwayswill.

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time really flies. and life is really short.

a month back, singapore lost 5 young men in the dragonboat race.
a few days back, singapore lost one of her best comedians. MC King.

and of coz. many more families face the loss of their loved ones over the year.

but life goes on. i believe their spirit will truly rest in peace when we can finally bid goodbye.

but it's hard rite. contradicting. guess i can only truly understand only when i experience it.

choy. but. this is life. everything comes and goes. and everything happens for a reason.

u learn to grow maturely when u finally overcome all the heartaches and pains.
u learn to accept things that dont go smoothly and make changes to ur lives.

learning. a part of everyone's lives. urs and mine.

i need time to let go those feelings.

why is it sooo freaking hard.

everytime i wanna bid a loving gdbye. u come by again and bring up everything tt i've put down.

or is it me? am i thinking tooo much??

song of the night : Please Remember (by LeAnn Rimes)

and also, Will You Remember Me (by Corrine May)

istillmissyou.likefark.yes.serious.likefark.

but i wish u all the best now. coz i cannot turn back time and hold on tight. anymore.

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counting down to being 20.

this yr kinda different around here. having less celebrations.
supposed to have dinner celebration yday with aunts. but it turned out otherwise.

usually there's dinner ard in the house. but this yr. guess SOMEONE said no. forget it.
oh well. den no dinner it shall be. at least there's a cake.

but u noe wad. wadeva.

oh well. at least i hope tml will be a fine celebration with the usual 5. but keng cant make it.
sighhh.

den tuesday will be a dinner with the girls simply 4.

den i'm officially 20. old lady. start the "2" series.. sighh..

hope this yr will bring about more fun and excitement. =)


istillmissu.guessthisheartwillalwaysbeatforu.

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guess where am i now???

lol. i'm using ching's comp to blog. staying over.
well well.

went sch today with shan to pay sch fees. like finally i get over and done with it.
well just have to pray for next sem. sianx.

den met ching at white sands to do shopping for food. for our steamboat!!
haha. my god. we bought lots of food la. one extra set for every dish. omg. lol.

we ate till we were damn full. pics will be coming up. lol.

now shan and ching are playing ds. lol. happy happy.

so glad they decided to have this mini stayover. really happy.

mood has been down since i duno when. and they really cheered me up.
duno they realise not. but to me, they did. =)

and of coz, u too. not forgetting. stay happy urself too.

lalalalaaaaa.. i love them all.

=)

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well the new year has arrived. and it wasnt a good start for me.

i'm tired. drained. my tear glands are tired too. give us all a break.plsss.

birthday is coming. turning 20.

even though everything is like so screwed. the shit i get from him. those farked up excuses and comments....

i'm glad i have mummy. 2 beloved sisters. my friends.

i dun need u in my life. fark off.

tonight i'm gg to stay over at ching's place. shan's coming along. yippeee.
girls night out.
[thank u babes for arranging this. i'm very happy to have u girls in my life. esp this tough period]

well. thinking alot...

shud i have gone into a jc?
wud it have been better if i went poly?
if i chose poly, wud i cont to uni?
if i studied harder and entered local uni, wud it be better?
if i din study for a yr, worked and earn $$, wud it be better?
wad will the future be like?
wad's my job?
wad's my pay?


wad's my life?


i hate you. forever.

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