the couch was my new bed this entire afternoon. i practically sat there from 11am to 9pm. cable tv has always been such a wonderful friend. MTV. STAR WORLD. TRAVEL & LIVING. etc etc.

love them all =)

yes, the weather sucked so i din swim. damn. sigh.

working tml. results out on thurs. fri, dinner with keng and gang.

i miss you. all i want for christmas is you.

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the weather was perrrrrfect for a swim. initially it was a bit cloudy but i went ahead. and luckily i did coz mr sun came out and burnt everyone's ass. today's swim was shiiiiiiiiok i swear. no crowd and lots of heat. love it to the max.

hope tmls weather would be the same. =)

shopping w mummy at bugis den went dinner with aunts at Raffles Town Club. shiok. =)

home. how boring. no life. sucks.

i miss you. dead

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weekends are here again. time for me to slack and rest and restore energy from mundane work on weekdays.

i dont wanna think so much into things. i dont wanna think so much into your words and actions. i just wanna be able to treasure all the happy moments i have with you now before i say goodbye. and i hope you mean what you say.

i dont wanna be your HI-BYE friend.

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i am thankful for the care and love i get from friends around me. i am thankful that even though they are caught up with their own busy lives, they still bother about mine. and i am really really really touched. (shan. ching. mag. xiufeng. jamie tang. tingting. alvin.)

its time i learn to let go and move on.

Lord, you are my pillar. you are my strength. hold on to your child and lead her to where she belongs.

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a minor scratch and it led to a big crack. a crack that will always be distinct to you and me. a crack that will never be perfect even if we mend it. i don even know what i can do or how i should go about mending this crack.

even if the scratch was not intentional. but it still happened. and it hurts badly. it really did.

i had a drama mama week. i am really tired from crying and screaming and banging. i really am.

cried today when i made a call. and it hurts alot. it really did. and im glad i was fine by lunch. =)

now i dun even know how to apologise to you. i know you dun blame me. but tats worse. coz i feel guilty. and i have no clue to how you really feel. you prolly wont come across here. but i wanna say....

kor, sorry.

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betrayed. tats all i can say. you farking betrayed my trust. i remembered clearly we promised not to breathe a single word about any conversation we had about THAT TOPIC. and what did u do? what did u farking do? u ARE the cause of whateva problems that have surfaced. i hope u are farking aware of all the shit that is happening or has had happened. i am soooo pissing mad. and all i can do is vent it out here. i don even know if i should tell you how farking pissed off i am coz i don wan to cause more problems to people around us. through this wonderful technology i hope YOU are aware that i am mentioning about YOU!


farked

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hello mr sun for like 5 hours and hello evil rain for the rest of the day.

luckily i managed to get a dip for an hour. =) finally dragged myself to the pool after 6mths. i feel soooo relieved. i know its gonna be drama mama. i tried to get my thoughts cleared out while swimming. hoping the waters will do the job. but it failed. i thought even more. damn.

hopefully tml will be bright and sunny and i can head for the pools again.=)

i love my weekdays now =) i just wanna be able to maintain the way things are between u and me now. and i dun wan it to end. i hope i dun destroy it.

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i was just grumbling about how mundane my job was 3 weeks ago. and now im starting to get the hang of it. THANK GOD! well at least i am doing smth more productive. and i dun doze off easily. hee hee. ive got great supervisor and colleagues. =)

and... good thing to hear that shan is starting to get the hang and liking her job. =) i pray for 12pm to come as soon as possible when i start work. and hate 1pm to come during lunch.

=(

sob.

dont be too nice. i might fall. and i fear...im starting soon.

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the bug is bugging me. amanda is down with the FLU! fark.

i felt normal this afternoon except for sharp pains at my throat and some blood when i coughed super hard once in the toilet. okay, i freaked out. its been quite a long time since these symptoms hit me.

and now i feel damn miserable. hurting throat and blocked nose.


ARGH! i hate work. i bet its responsible for my terrible state.


one more time... ARGH!!!

intended to catch The Hills Season 4 Episode 12 but im tooooooooo tired. sigh.

i miss my girls. though shan and i are working in the same building, BUT, we are separated by 15 farking floors! damn it. and we only get to meet each other during our lunch breaks. WHY!! WHY!! WHY!!!! sighhh.

just heard someone got out of a relationship. i guess its best for them both. esp for her. coz it pains to hear how shes being treated. and i hope everything goes well for her and that a man who will love her wholeheartedly will appear before her soon. =)

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finally. finally. finally ive come to senses. after so long, ive finally made it. thank you for all that youve done that made me finally realised what a fool i have been all these years. i will remove all memories i once had. i will delete all sms-es ive kept. i will no longer drop a single tear for you. i will not put any more hope. u are such a let down.

they all say "love is blind". i wished i never met you. and i wished i never loved you.

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