jeanette ching spread the disease to me. i searched for a new blogskin too. =)
a brand new semester is gonna start soon. in my final year. sighss. *hwaiting*
from now, i will just close my eyes and ears and not bother. its best to hear less, talk less and know less. do what you deem fit. i surrender.

lalala.

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money money money money money. it's the hottest thread in my forum now.

fuck off.

p.s: dont think too much. the entire world is not talking bout you. we aint interested.

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it feels like a million pieces of glass shattering and piercing through my heart.

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picking up the pieces. standing up from where i fell. getting back on track.

yes. i have to do that. its not the end of the other. i should bother less. forgive and forget.

at least i know, i still have them in my life. =) and i know, we will definitely go a very long way.

HWAITING.<3

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have you ever wondered what is the reason for being here? have we been here to create smiles on other faces? have we been here to create tears on other cheeks? at the end of the day, have we been remembered by those on our msn list? those in our phonebook contacts?

a few days ago, 2 random strangers came knocking on the door and asked to share a few words from the bible. everyday, we come across many obstacles and often question ourselves of our capabilities. one of them approached a 13 yr old teenager who asked "What is Life? What am i doing in my life?"

isnt it sad tat someone at a young age of 13 is questioning the definition and purpose of Life? Someone who has barely started to see the world is actually afraid to see the world. afraid to see the ugly side of people. afraid to also experience the love people might shower.

now, i also ask. what is life? what is waiting for me in my life? how far will i go in life? how well will i do in life?

Lord, you have put me through all these trials and tribulations to make me stronger for the worst to come. But, i am defeated. I am beginning to fail these tests and feel everything crashing down on me. Lord, can you still find me? If you do, will you still want me?

this week has been a bad start. and i can feel more pain coming. stay with me, pls.

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who can i turn to now.

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thank you to those who have shown very much concerns over gramps. =) mohli. shan. ching. lilo. <3

and she is discharged this afternoon and has returned home safely. the initial plans were to put granny at my aunt's place in pasir ris to rest and be on medication regularly for a week before the next checkup w the doc. but, she misses home. so yes, my granny is back at my place. and ive become the nurse from now on.

missy tan. HAHA.

being a little emotional. its only when things become serious, then we start to hit our heads and think hard and realise what we've done before and what changes we should make to our lives. taking granny for example. i admit i disliked being ard her. i get irritated by her voice. by her actions. the language barrier makes everything worse and being the hot-tempered me, i just get pekcek easily. i admit i still am. but after she was hospitalised due to extreme high BP and in fear of a stroke hitting her (CHOY CHOY CHOY CHOY), i begin to realise what we as grandchildren should do for the best of everyone. so, i must learn to be more patient around her. =)

its not easy for her either. she didnt want things to turn out this way. she doesnt want to be a burden for everyone. but, she has no choice. and i know, we will all age one day. and i will have my grandchildren (maybe..) around me. and i surely dont want to be disliked and not taken care of. so, i should play my part and redeem all my guilt and sins ive committed all these years.

i hope everything's not too late.

Lord, thank you for putting me through this test. i hope i wont disappoint you and everyone else around me. and if i do, pls forgive me and guide me through. aunts and dad are worried and worked up over granny's condition and medical fees. its understandable that they will flare up at the slightest things. Lord, i know you will calm their hearts and minds and let everything get back on track.

and may God bless all those ard me. my friends and their families. may peace always be with you all. =)

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gasp gasp gasp. H1N1 cases in Singapore is now 66! goodness. 17 new cases have been reported today. gasp gasp gasp.



and to those irresponsible people who have travelled to affected countries, PLEASE F***ING HOME QUARANTINE YOURSELF AND NOT GO SHOPPING OR TAKE PUBLIC TRANSPORTS! and if you are feeling unwell, GO AND F***ING SEE A DOCTOR TO GET YOURSELF CHECKED!!!!!



it is super irresponsible for those who returned from affected countries and are having flu-like symptons to still go out to crowded places to do shopping, take public transports, or even go to work. dont you people know GERMS CAN F***ING SPREAD!



slaps!



my addiction never died. it still burning hot! =)



sarang haeyo oppas! HEEEEEEE <3

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im bored. yawns. sigh.

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bugis, iluma.

out with the girls today. delights. we havent seen each other for A MONTH! goodness gracious. hahaha. happy happy! lunched and did a bit of walking ard of iluma. caught "Ghost of Girlfriends Past". i wouldnt say its fantastically good! but, its alright. pay to watch the hot matthew and sexy jennifer. hahaha. some parts were rather touching. overall...ok only. =)


here's what was mentioned from the movie....

"The power of a relationship lies in the person who cares less"

how true is this? personally i feel that women in general put a whole lot more care and love in the relationship and yet, some of them are not reciprocated of their love. so what does this tell us? Women have lesser control. Bcos they love their boys, they are willing to do anything just to have them by their side. which also means, losing their senses. when breakup comes, women are hurt more badly. sighh.

then again, there are also those boys who are a bunch of pussys la. hahaha.

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another friday is here. time passes real quick hor. haha. finally. 4 consecutive days of band activities are over. and its time to meet the girls! =)

mom is at sis's place for the entire june hols bcos the lil fart has no sch.
dad is working.
granny is out at aunt's place.
tat leaves me ALONE here. luckily i made plans to go out.

i feel like i'm a housewife for a day. pack the room. wash dirty clothes. take down dried clothes. vacuum the floor. i feel my mother's pain!

HAHAHAHA.

goodbye!

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monday and tuesday. at Nanyang Girls. helping out with band workshop for the sec1. thank god everything went quite smoothly. its just the burning heat that really got me irritated. the weather was terrible man. goodnesssssss.

just came back from a swim. gonna get ready soon to meet darling at toapayoh. even band pract later at cchy. drained.


=)

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saturday, band pract was goood. jiehong came to meet us to take a look. haha. reminded od my nickname again. MR BEAN. thank you. i feel soooo honoured. *roll my eyes* hahaha. lunched at north point with jiehong guoxian and xiufeng. =)

sunday. church. rot at home.

the weekend is gonna be over in 2 hours time. how boring. haha. upcoming week is filled with band-related stuff.

monday and tuesday. helpout at band workshop located at Nanyang Girls.
wednesday and thursday. evening band practices at Chung Cheng Yishun.

yawns. life is boring, isnt it. sighhhhhh.

blocked and deleted.

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and my results are out. my prayers have been answered.

Lord, thank you for creating this miracle. =)

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since dad is on mc today, i decided to leave the house for a swim. burning hot. but i love it. travelled down to queenstown to see mum and lucas. =)

tats wad i did for the day. boring hor. sian. hahaa.

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