A week with Publicis has past. I must say its been straining, draining, stressful, lost, yet challenging. definitely, i face alot of question marks when im assigned to a task. and im uncertain of the processes behind each assignment. and im uncertain of the outcome that im supposed to achieve after all the rush and chase.

but ive decided to open my big mouth and just bug my SAE and just go on and on and on and on and ask and ask and ask and ask ask ask.. cos thats the only way i can learn and grow and pick up the job asap (like how they want me to), isnt it?

well, i must say guiding and teaching isnt v efficient there. she hasnt sat down and gone through the backgrounds and processes with me. step by step. people by people. im not even officially introduced to the clients yet. well, tat says it all. without formal introduction, its hard for me to follow-up on jobs and see emails and reply emails and continue to work on the job. so everything is stuck between me and my SAE. she did ask me to followup on smth, which i did. and when i returned with an outcome, she took from there and went on. then she asked me to followup on the same job.. but, in between the two followups, things have changed and i wasnt briefed. so, there we go, im stuck and lost and questions start coming up all over again.

dont misunderstand this. i dont hate my job. in fact, i love it. i love the constant time chase rather than a mundane kind of office job that involves with just sitting there and type type type type type. so yes, i love it. i just need to be guided more and taught more. and i just need to test out running a new job on my own from the start and we see how things run from there. if i meet any problems, i have SAE to guide me.. rather than now, im like her runner. who runs her half-way done jobs, without knowing the background. well, tats about all for first week. i hope the 2nd week is better. =)

well, apart from career life. its my spiritual life. DS today was awesome. i had so much fun learning about God and knowing God. i had great times learning about my ds-mates and knowing more about them too! i cant wait for the bbq next week cos thats where we come together and share and laugh even more! amen! =) awesome!

and after service, had dinner with tuffers (ethel william junsheng) and aiping mummy! hahahaha. had fun laughing and laughing. =) it was a great time to let everything out and just relax and be loved in the His Kingdom. =) the best part was.. ICE CREAM AT MACS WITH AIPING! hahahahaha. she loves to treat me ice cream. heehee. =) amen!

Thank you Lord for this blessed week that you had set for me. I want to praise you for your strength that guides me through each day at work. I want to thank you for the constant supports i get from friends and family at the end of each blessed day. I want to thank you for the good rest i take each night. Lord, your love strength care and concern is so everlasting, so abundant. I cannot be more thankful to have this walk with you. Lord, you have not foresaken me despite the years i walked away. You truly are my God. AMEN!

Peace be with you all.

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yes, i officially start slogging tomorrow. =) or =( i dont know.

as mentioned in my previous post, the workload is heavy. but im confident that i will be able to cope and manage it well. i have trust in me and HIM. =)

yesterday's ds session and service was lovely! i cant believe how awesome it has been, but it was great! refreshing! enlightening! enriching! just, magnificent.

His love for us will never die. His love does not concentrate on one single, but one WHOLE. u, me, him, her...EVERYONE! No one will be forsaken by the Lord cos He loves us ALL.

As the week begins, i seek strength in Him. Every challenge that i face, every difficulty that i meet, every rock that i stumble upon, i see Him reaching His hands to me and holding me through.

amen!

im blessed to have such wonderful friends by me. Friends from Charis who are walking with me through this spiritual life. Friends from secondary and jc who are walking with me through my social life, who truly understand me, who truly love me, who truly care for me.

amen!

today is father's day! i havent had a proper father's day celebration since i dont know when. but this evening, ive suggested for dinner with dad and mom. just us 3. i must say tat the relationship that dad and i have has definitely improved this year. his temper has toned down and i thank God for that. Otherwise, he would have probably slaughtered me for taking up this position as an AE (just like erjie!).

anw, happy father's day, daddy!

<3

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amen amen amen! praise to you, Lord our God.

went back to office yesterday. supposed to sign the contract of employment but the HR person was yet to be found and there are some paperwork hiccups.

so instead, i went ard the office and did a self-intro to pple on the Citibank team. and also, did a handover from an intern who is leaving after 6mths. after hearing and seeing how much she has done as an intern, i felt like my internship with Ogilvy was crap. there was sooo much that i didnt cover as an intern. all i ever did was run FAs. there were simply toooooo many things on the account to be covered and handed over within 2hrs. its highly impossible. at the end of the day, i suffered from major information overload! i walked out like a zombie. i totally had no idea what did i just sign myself into. goodness gracious.

i told myself. its just 2hrs to cover half a year's worth of work. its impossible. unless i have been in this industry as long as she did. otherwise, its impossible to grasp everything in hrs. its just impossible. Citibank is just tooo big and just toooo much work. i hope come monday, i will be able to be on the ball. and within a month, i shud grab everything in control. =)

Heavenly Father Lord, may be i havent heard you loud and clear before i made this decision to be a suit with Publicis. may be i havent opened my options wide enough for you to guide me in. But Lord, i believe this decision i made will allow me to grow and mature in this working world. And Dear Father Lord, i know that each step i make, i have you to strengthen me. i have you to guide me. i have YOU WITH ME! Lord, i know you wil bless me with courage and cast all fears and worries away and allow me to be confident in things i do and allow me to learn as much as i can as each day goes by. So Lord, i want to thank you for this opportunity you placed before me. i want to thank you for allowing me to test my capabilities. i want to thank you for being WITH me and NOT forsaking me. I praise you. I worship you. I LOVE YOU.

AMEN.

off to meet aiping and amy for kopi fellowship at singpost before my Discovery Series with the 5 loaves & 2 fishes! amen!!!

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haha this is the logo of my futuer employer! fierce hor, lion leh. mai siao siao.

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In my darkest hours, You lifted me up
You gave me Strength
You gave me Grace

When i fell to the groud, You lifted me up
Once again, holding me in Your loving arms

No matter where i run to, i will always find YOU there

With Your grace, i honour You
With Your grace, i worship You
With Your grace, I LOVE YOU

Heavenly father, i give thanks to you for constantly being by my side and not forsake me after all these years of running and pushing you away. Now i realise that Lord, YOU are indeed my heavenly kind, my saviour, my God who lifts me up from my sorrows and pains, who comforts and shows me the WAY. Dear father, thank you for all the doors that uve opened for me. and Lord, i thank and praise you in your awesome name!

=))

AMEN!

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yes, on this very day. i will officially step into the workforce. many months ago, before the exams and before boston, i was all lost and confused as to which career path i should embark on.

should i go with the norm and do something banking/finance related?
or should i go with what ive tried before and am comfy doing it again? which in this case would be an internship i did as an Account Executive (or aka a SUIT) in an advertising firm. or should i do something along in line with my passion - kids? and this would be applying for early childhood education.

i was stuck at this junction. i didnt know where to go. i didnt know which path to embark on. i didnt know if i would like it if i did banking. or i would do as well as i tot i would be in advertising. i didnt know if i really want to be a kindergarten teacher!

all these kept hitting me hard in the face. i cried every now and then. and i hated growing up. i hated time to pass sooo quickly each day cos exams drew nearer and it meant i have to rapidly send resumes cos such job hunt takes abt 1-2mths.

i hated it! i really did!

and now, im starting work on monday. ive decided to strive and do my best in advertising. its an industry where the culture is flexible. yes, no doubt the workload is heavy. i have to make plenty of sacrifices. but, if i dont make sacrifices, i wont be given that opportunity to learn, grow and mature in the corporate world. which job gives u the best of both ends? if there really is one, everyone will die for it!

so, here it is. I will officially be a suit with Publicis Groupe (Singapore) on Monday. and my first client to my portfolio is Citibank Singapore.

wish me luck everyone.

and most importantly, May the Lord bless me with all His strength and grace. May HE walk with me through any challenges i face along the way in this career. amen!

=)

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isnt she such a sweetheart. her name is Kate Seah. she is sooooo adorable. i love her to the max! =) june mummy, when can amanda ahyee see baby K again....heehee.

ma chiam june mummy reads this. cheyy.

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ive been at this for nearly a month. its time to stop procrastinating and just get my butt moving. ive been stuck at this for months. ever since months before exams.. during exams.. after exams.. during my trip.. and now. its time to move move move.

but....move to where?! i have no idea. i have no directions! i dont know where to head to! idont even know where i should start my first career!

yes, i dont mind being in advertising again, since i interned before. went for interview w publicis on monday. i dont know my chances but im praying real hard that this door remains open for me! i really hope they can call me soon. i know jobscopes and responsibilities are v v v different as compared to being an intern. but, tats the whole learning process isnt it? i want to take up that challenge and learn. i want to be that independent girl.

my confidence has went into hiding. i dont know where it is anymore. my sisters are right about me. i really dont know who i am anymore. i dont know what the future lies ahead becos i dont know where i wanna be in life. i am stuck at my major turning point. time isnt on my side, but i have no choice.

i feel useless. i feel lost. i dont want to grow up so fast. i still want to be going to school at odd hours of the day, go orchard road and shop and lam nua, sleep thru the afternoons, rush for projects... i still want to enjoy my freedom. its true that im not ready and not excited about being in the workforce, earning my own money, being independent, meeting new people...etc. im not ready.

sigh, quarter-life crisis!

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